Once Upon A Dream Ch.6

Hearing the sound of waves crashing into the shore I walk towards that melody sound looking down at my feet feeling the warm sand rubbing through my toes and feeling the sun's beam kissing my skin giving it that dewy glow.

I suddenly hear someone say

"lujain... come here sweetie I have something to show you"

Turning around I saw my dad shout out to me with his perky face expression that he always has when he's happy. I saw him filled with joy as if nothing ever happened I walked towards him reaching my arm to his .... He gave me strawberries my favorite fruite.

Holdin one piece getting it close to my mouth I took the first bite then suddenly.... 

 Everything went black...












"Where did the sun go??? I can't see"












I screamed calling my dad he vanished too...









"DAD?"






"DADDY?"







"DAAD WHERE R U? I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING...."





Suddenly a dark blue light shined the place I looked down at my hand the strawberry was gone Instead there was a dead bug bite in half while my hands were covred in its blood

I started coughing throwing the bug on the ground whipping my hands that were coverd in its blood 







*coughs*

Feeling so scared I saw a door close by I opened it and saw blood on the floor bad stench all over the room and disgusting insects sworming on the wall I couldn't believe my eyes I was too frightened  to go in when I felt a push behind me that got me down on my knees in that room looking behind I see the door close by its self slowly....








looking infront ..











I saw a crippled creature walking then sitting on his knees his back was all bones and his skin looks dead as if it was been burned .... I felt so scared..







it was eating those insects on the wall ..

I got up slowly to try to leave backing away slowly shivring and my heart was racing I just wanted to find my dad...




walking backwards towards the door I reached for the handle and there was nothing there turning around to see a black wall ....





my heart raced as I felt a breath close to my face whispering ...










"you're not going anywhere" with an old ashy creepy voice







I closed my eyes saying "this is just a dream wake you lujain please wake up"

I suddenly heard my dad call my name ..










"lujain"









"DAD? where are you"









I turned around

























To see his body covered with blood on the floor sitting on top of him that demon creature, he looked at my face with his black cold eyes and his fangs showing in his mouth drooling blood saying



"he's GONE...."





suddenly he got down on his 4 feet breaking his neck I heard a loud noise coming from the bones of his body 

I couldn't move It like I was paralized my heart beats was so fast that I could hear them from tm ear drums...

"HEEEEEELP MEEEEEE PLEASE" shouting out help when no one was there in the dark....

The creature ran towards me with his 4 feet so fast opening his mouth















I screamed " DAAAAAAAAAAAD"







*Beeep Beeep Beeep*








I woke up








"it was just a nightmare"


I was sweating like a pig my heart was racing I teared.


my mom suddenly rushed in my room




"lujain?? are you okai I heard you scream!!"


I started crying telling my mom all about that nightmare

Once Upon A Dream Ch.5

A week later after college started..

Professor :"now since this is a lab class and by now you got to know the campus and students well  you all must be assigned to a partners for this whole semester each student has to have  1 partner only so pick your partners write your names and give the papers to me"

Watching everyone pick their partners while I was at the back not knowing who to partner with ... I felt a poke on my back it was khalid.

Khalid :"hello miss grumpy.."

Me :"hello mr.smirky .. Yea what do u want?"

Suddenly a girl interrupts us

Her :"hey khalid will you be my partner?"

Looking at how she was dressed with those tight skinny jeans and that V cut shirt that goes down to her belly showing her boobs and figure more than she should and the way she talks leaning over him the relationship seems to be intemate.

Khalid didn't look at her the way I did its like he didn't pay attention to her..

Her :"hello?? Khalood im right here you forgot?"

Him :"oh right how could I forget sorry lujain this is sara .. My friend.."

Sara :"aha lujain you're new here right?"

Me :"yea"

Sara :"well if you need or want anything give me a call and im sure us girls would have alot of fun together"

I felt uncomfortable by the way she talks to me as if I was a threat to her

Sara :"so yea khalid will you?l

"Actually I'm still deciding on who to pick partners with so I'll get back on you with that" he replied

Seeing a grungy look on sara's face she acted smiley

Sara :"sure if you decided call me" 

She blew a kiss in the air to him and left

Me :"is that really your friend?" 

Khalid :"to be honest she thinks we're more but I don't She's not my type but she doenst seem to get that"

Me :"oh okai.. Anyways what did you want?"

"you're really a tough girl to talk to u know that.." Nodding his head while smiling

Me :"well simple .. Don't talk to me"

"Ouch" he laughed

I couldn't help but giggle I was so mean to him I don't even know why..

I suddenly saw his face expression change from smiling to a straight face while looking at me. 

Me :"are you okai?"

Khalid :"no its just...."

Me :"what?"

Khalid :"its the first time I saw you actually smile and laugh .. Im serious no joking around you have the most beautiful smile why don't you smile more often? Its seems like you're always sad or misreble.."

The class was over and I didn't feel good from what he said cause I remembered what happened this past month..

Me :"excuse me I gotta go.."

Khalid :" wait lujain...!!"

I rushed to leave the class I went outside to catch some air I went to sit under a tree and I started tearing ...

-LittleVoiceInMyHead-

Lujain stop it .. You're stronger than this you need to hold yourself together you're okai ... I'm okai..

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I saw a shadow behind me coming closer I turned to see khalid.

Him :"hey ... Did I upset you with something that I said? Are you okai??"

Me :"why do you keep following me leave me alone I don't want anyone helping me or talking to me just leave.. just go.." 

Sitting back at the ground giving him my back I cried softly

Whispering :"he left"

Khalid came closer putting his hand on my back :"who left lujain?"

Me :"why are you still doing here?"

He reached his hand towards my face whiping the tear that fell down.

Him :"I don't wanna bother you or make you feel uncomfertable but I'm sorry I can't leave you like this feeling this way knowing I may have caused it I'll be here all day if it takes to make u feel better or to get you to talk about whats bothring you..I know I may seem like the annoying guy who doesn't seem to give up but to be honest I really like you thats why you see me acting all stupid and goofy ..so please tell me whats wrong?"

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-SoulfulVoice-

I know I changed.. people do change but I don't think that this change was better for me I realized I pushed people away alot and I ended up alone and that was all my fault I can't blame anyone for that mistake but I shouldn't blame me also. Maybe opening up to someone new might change things for me .. It might change me .. 

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"my dad .... He left" I replied.

Khalid looked at me fully listening while i looked at the campus view..

Me :"he died about a month ago in a car accident I survived and he didn't and things haven't been the same ever since ... he was my best friend .. I felt like I lost a part of me so its like I lost myself .. I can't eat right .. I can't sleep right I hate everything about my house because it reminds me of him I tried to forget but it only makes it worse.."

Not controlling my tears they kept streaming down my face as if I had no longer control of my body..

I started crying saying ..

"I don't understand why .. Why does this happen? I lost all hope in life now I only see death ahead I feel dead inside khalid"

I looked at him tearing "I don't wanna feel this pain anymore.." 

He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me like I've never been hugged before

Him :"I can't change the past lujain but If I could bring back your dad I promise I would ... but I can promise you this even though you still don't know me well I promise to be here for you whenever you need me you be damn sure of that.."

he kept hugging me till I stopped crying

Once Upon A Dream Ch.4

My mom spent that whole day trying to make me feel better while I know deep down inside her she's so heart broken and damaged she was strong in front of me but I can feel the pain inside her and I could see it in her eyes.

After spending 2 days in the hospital the thought of my dad being gone still hasn't entered my mind I still won't and can't accept it.

2nd day in the hospital bed.

Me :"mom .. I wanna tell you something"

Mom :"tell me sweetie "

Me :"I wanna apply to college and go on sunday"

Mom :"lujain! You just survived an accident and u can barely walk straight and you wanna go to college all of a sudden? Why now?"

I looked at my mom's eyes with an emotional expression but held my tears from falling.

Me :"because thats what my dad would have wanted me to do ...  Thats his dream and that's the one thing I will do from now I've wasted time all this time I've wasted it wanting to relax not caring about my future and on and on my dad keeps telling me don't waste ur time ur precious time I didn't even ..."

I wiped the tear that fell on my cheek and continued.

"Care about what he said ... This is his dream his last wish that he asked me to do and I will do it I promise I will I promise dad" 

I looked at the sealing.

My mom leaned over and sat next to me in bed hugging me and saying :"I understand ... Alright But u'll apply to next year's semester.."

Me :"no mom I wanna go this semester not next years"

Mom :"sweetie u know I want you to go to college more than anything but now its. Atough time for you look at u! You're..."

I interrupted my mom.

Me :"i'm fine mom I'm fine I will be fine enshallah please just do this one thing for me wallah I promise I won't ask for anything else.."

I kissed my mom's forehead and hugged her.

Mom :"enshallah sweetie ... Enshallah"

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-Soulful Voice-

I know applying to college right now is something no one would have ever expected me to do, but now I realize how little and short life can be and how much time I've wasted with everything I did. I didn't just decide this for my dad but I decided it for me too because I know something was missing in my life I felt it. All this time dad was just trying to make me see how time can pass and things can change so fast one minute he was there the next he's all gone I know now I know what I should do.

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After few hours I had a visitor come in.

The door knocked I saw noor enter.

Noor :"ahh I was worried about what happened thank god your okai..."

She rushed over to me and hugged me so tight.

{ her hug ahh her hug I've missed it I need it }

Noor held my head and looked into my eyes I saw her tearing.

Noor :"you don't know how I reacted when I knew about the accident lujain ... Elhmdallah you're okai ... Are you feeling any better now?"

Me :"yea I'm much better and fine.. Elhmdallah"

Noor :"umm I'm sorry about your dad ... I know he meant alot to you"

I couldn't help but tear infront of her the way she said it just made me realize that I can no longer see him again ...

Noor :"I'm so sorry lujain shhhh don't cry"

She hugged me.

Me :"I'm sorry too..."

We sat and talked about everything and suddenly noor brought up yousif.

Noor :"lujain umm yousif is worried like alot you don't wanna Talk to him or something?"

Me :"no... I want u to tell him thank u but no thanx I don't want him in my life anymore it wont work and I'm not thinking about any guy or relationships or love and l that crap I just reazlied lifes too short why waste it on stuff thats not worth it.. I'm just gonna focus about college and yea"

Noor :"alright"

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Days past and I got accepted in a private art college I never thought I'd end up in an art college even though I knew how to draw all that stuff since I was little but it never crossed my mind.

The first day of college 

I wore my black jeans a white tank top and a beanie I know its not my usual outfit but alot has changed since my dad died including me...

I grabbed my headphones and bag went to hug and kiss my mom before I head out and left with driver so he'd drop me off .. On our way I put on my headphones and played "do it all again" - Mr.probz ...

85, something wrong

mommy cryin, daddy gone

It wasn't me, nose bleeds

Empty fridge, no groceries

Teardrops running down my face

It's just one of those days

If you and me would meet someday

I think the first thing you would say is something like...

I have made some mistakes in the past

but something that is cannot change

I've tried to do the best that I can 

to wish it all away...

Staring at the window emotionless as I see the wind blow the leaves when I heard the driver say we're close get ready ..

I held my bag and he dropped me at the front door I was amazed of how the beautiful campus was so I walked around before my first class and saw a tree from a far I got close and sat under it while listening to some music when my phone vibrated..

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Noor :"hey hows college so far?"

Me:"hey well I just arrived you ask me after I finished the day haha"

Noor :"Lol yea just wanted to check on you and see how you were doing .."

Me :"everything seems okai till now hopefully my classes will be good too"

Noor :"yea hopefully.."

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Suddenly I heard someone whisper "pssst psst" 

I looked around to find no one there I was frightened I stood up searching left and right no one was close to me... 

I felt a rock on my left shoulder as if someone hit me I turned around and someone said "up here"

I looked up at the tree and saw a guy with deep brown hair and hazel eyes wearing a black shirt and jeans holding a book sitting on the branch ..

Me :"you scared me !!!"

Him :"sorry about that Just wanted to tell you that you're music was too loud.."

Me :"excuse me What loud? I had my headphones on?"

Him :"well I guess you put it at high volume that I can it hear it from way up here and It was disturbing my reading time"

"Oh really.." I replied with an irritated face 

Him : "yup"

Me :"I'm sorry but I don't think my music was disturbing anybody and I'm not apologizing from something I didn't do wrong.. Okai!"

Him :"haha well you seem to be like an angry girl .. Are you usually like that?"

Me : "me? Angry? .. Dude you don't even know me .. look I'm gonna change my spot now enjoy reading your ......."

I looked at the book he was holding and continued : "beautiful disaster.."

he smiled as if he just heard a joke I replied :"did I say something funny?"

him :"well ... you look cute when you're irritated"

Me :"okai... byee"

I left smiling a little but didn't want him to see me smiling because he irritated me and I wasn't in the mood I looked back at the tree and its like he vanished ..

walking towards my class I saw so many girls and boys chatting and smiling and I felt dead inside watching their expressions, laughs and the positivity as if the world was perfect while my world was shattered. 

I entered the class found a seat in the back and sat when the doctor came and introduced himself and explained the subject I kept hearing a squeak of a chair behind me that at some point it pissed me off so I turned around and it was him again.

{ great now this guy is gonna ruin my whole semester cause of his annoyingness } 

"excuse me please stop making that sound" asking him politely

the guy seemed all smirky and happy "sure thing ... after you tell me your name?"

"lujain" I replied quick to make him quit that noise

he smiled "beautiful name I'm khalid, nice to meet you"

Me :"I wish I can say the same .." giving him my back to continue with the lecture

when class was over I got out to text noor when khalid suddenly interrupted my way 

Khalid :"hey"

Me :"you're in my way .."

Khalid :"haha I wasn't wrong when I said you're an angry grumpy girl"

Me :"And I wasn't wrong when I said you're annoying..."

He laughed 

Me :"now why do you keep annoying me is there something you want?"

Khalid :"well ... I wanted to apologize for how much I annoyed you today I can be like that when I like someone I guess .. Irritating , annoying, self centered that's how I act but anyways really sorry didn't wanna cause you any discomfort."

Me :"well apology accepted now please I'll be on my way"

I left remembering yousif when khalid he said he liked me ..how he cheated how badly I was treated I felt rage sad angry all of the negative emotions piled up 

He smiled at my face again as if I'm the reason behind how he's always smiley and perky ... But somehow .. His smile gives me hope .. At least some hope in this hopeless world.

Once Upon a Dream Ch.3

Have you ever felt like at some point everything just stopped ..... time, the world, movement and everything it all came to peace. Its as if all the problems in the world disappeared and no noise nothing just silence.














The world was finally at peace it was so silent till I heard.












"lujain .... "












"hello? .... can you hear me?"










"Lujain?"








The noise came back I slowly began opening my eyes.

{ why does my right eye hurt? why can I only see with my left eye? }

I only saw blurred images I think I heard a man call my name who is he?

I closed my eyes and the silence came back.











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-SoulfulVoice-
Time ... Its so complicated not as simple as I thought it was. Time moves fast in wonderful moments and slow in sad moments. It never stops yet It does stop when things fall apart at least thats what we feel. Time is what we all thought we have, and we don't realize we don't have much until its too late ... Life is never predictable, all the memories are unforgettable, some feelings are magical everything happens during time.
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"Sweetheart Lujain?"

I opened my eyes...

Me :"mom?"

Mom :"ahh baby...."

she leaned over and hugged me I can only see her with my left eye.

{ I heard my mom crying why is she crying? }

Me :"mom? ... Wh.. What happebed?"

Mom :"alhamdallah you're okai ..."

while crying she hugged me and kept saying elhmdallah.

Me :"mom?"

{ ouch my head ahh .. }

Mom :" ..... lujain you were in a car accident"

{ omg ... What... ahh where's my dad? }

Me :"my head ugh it hurts .. Mom where's dad?"

Mom's tears kept streaming down her face the look on her eyes showed that something wasn't right she was silent lookin down.

Me :"mom tell me where's dad?"

Mom :"ah .. jojo he .."

she hesitated.

Me :"mom tell me!!"

before she could say a word the door knocked it was my two lil brothers and the doctor my brothers hugged me.

Doctore :"how are you feeling lujain?"

Me :"my right eye hurts .. and my head too but where's my dad"

Doctor :"oh well u had a surgery few hours ago u had to have stitches and fix the glass that hit ur eye and don't worry u'll see in that eye for after few weeks I'll give you some painkillers for ur head u might experience some headache and dizziness u had a bruce in ur head because of the accident u hit ur head very hard u also have a broken leg but nothing serious you will be fine enshallah don't worry lujain rest ur head u need to relax now.."

Me :"but doctor where's my dad no one answered me I wanna know if he's okai?"

Doctor :"may I have a word with your mom first?"

Me :"okai"

they went out the room leaving me with salim and wahab.

{ I was wondering why didn't they tell me was dad okai ? is he okai ? I wanna know I can't bare to wait any longer }

they came back and the doctor looked at me.

Doctor :"I'm sorry lujain ... But ur dad passed away in the accident.."

Dear god what did I just hear?

I looked at my mom saw her crying ...

Me :"mom ? He's joking right??"

Mom looked at me and came closer tearing.

Mom :"no lujain ... Your dad ... " she cried

I looked at her

Mom :"died he couldn't make it because he was protecting u when the car hit and it caused him internal bleeding I'm so sorry ... "

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-LittleVoiceInMyHead- 

No lujain don't believe them dad didn't leave you he loves u he wouldn't leave you like that .. Dad is okai I'm sure of it they're all lying to me ... They're lying.

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Me :"no mom ... I don't believe you I know my dad is here."

I smiled and laughed hysterically 

Mom looked at my doctor then she came closer holding my hand.

Mom :" lujain ... I'm sorry this hurts me more than it hurts u .. Your dad...."

Me :"MOM don't say that word JUST DONT  ... I DONT BELIEVE IT OR ANY OF YOU"

Tears slowly streamed down my left eye .. I just can't. This is not real I don't believe it.

Me :"i beg you mom tell me your joking and that its not truue..."

I kissed her hand.

I shaked while holding my mom's hand the tears prevented me from seeing her clearly.

Mom cried and said :"lujain i'm so sorry ..."

The word killed me for the time I felt like I have died inside.. How could this be the man who raised me has gone away forever ... How could this be the best friend I ever had left me just like that .. My  dad... !!! 

*Sudden Flashbacks*

Dad :"lujain la don't open your eyes wait and see what I got you"

Dad was covering my eyes.

Me :"Lemme seee!!!"

Dad moved his hands away.

The most amazing bicycle right infromt of me I was 8 years old.

..............

Me :"dad don't forget BIG MAAAC OKAI???"

Dad :"i knooooow stop repeating it xD"

.................

Dad kissed my forehead in bed.

Dad :"goodnight my angel.. I love you"

Me :"I love u too daddy.."

............

Graduation party dad looked at me tearing for the first time.

Dad :"I can't believe my babygirl is all grown up"

He hugged me so tight and I wouldn't let go.

Me :"I love u dad so much"

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"Lujain?"

I heard the doctor call me.

I started crying on the bed screaming at the top of my lungs.

"EVERYBODY GET OUT .. GET OUT"

Everyone gave me my space and got out my mom was the last one to go out before she went out she looked at me and opened her mouth she was about to say something.

Me :"Mom don't ... Don't say anything please" i said it while tearing and crying.

She left the room.

I held the pillow and screamed throwing the pillow on the flower vase breaking it.

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-SoulfulVoice-

Never did I thought I would ever lose my dad. He was the best friend I ever had he never let me down sure we fight sometimes and disagree but no relationship is perfect. I loved him dearly that I couldn't believe it when mom told me he's gone the thought of it ma dashat 3agly and it still didn't. How could this happen how could he be gone? How did he leave like that? The only person who made me feel comfertable gave advices he didn't want anything but the best for me he's gone now. Its like a hole has been made in my heart and that hole can never be sealed until my dad is here again filling it with love and care.

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I was shaking so hard and my heart couldn't bare with the news. I held my chest and whipped on it slowly saying :"please heart stop hurting me ur killing me ... Please stop the pain please go away"

The tears wouldn't stop streaming ... I closed my eyes and fell asleep all of a sudden.

Mom's (POV) :

I went out with the doctor when lujain wanted to be alone.

The look on my daughters face damaged my heart even more after when they told me my husband has passed away no mother deserves this, no mother should suffer from the pain I suffered from its unbearable knowing the man you love died and seeing how broken and hurt ur kids are and how ur supposed to be the strong one in the family holding it together.

I cried away from my kids and sat on the floor.

I held my head crying my eyes off I should be holding on not losing it but I just love him so much and having my kids to grow up without their dad around them is hard and raising them alone how am I supposed to do that? I need him to be there ... i need you.

I wipped away my tears and talked to the doctor.

Doctor :"miss sara (mom) ur daughter didn't need to know the news now she's in a very serious condition all she needs now is a rest and I'm sorry for ur loss"

Me :"thankyou"

I never stopped tearing since I found out the news yesterday about mohammad the love of my life.

I looked at the window in my daughters hospital room I saw her sleeping. I never knew things would turn out this way.

I came in her room and told my sister to take wahab and salim to her house for the night I wanted to spend the night with my daughter not leaving her alone she needs me and I will be strong for her.


Lujain's POV :

I woke up the next day and I saw my mom holding my hand in the hospital bed and sleeping she looked so tired and the way she slept at night broke my heart she never left me even when I said I didn't want anyone around.

I moved my hand saying :"mom? Wakeup!"

My mom jumped :"ahh whats wrong??"

Me :"no no its just the way you're sleeping it hurting your neck try to sleep on the couch its better."

Mom :"don't worry about me sweetie I'm fine now tell me are you okai? Do u feel better?"

I kissed her hand saying :"Thank you ... "

Mom :"don't thank me I'm your mom I'll always be here for you"

I sat that morning with my mom wanted to know what happened the other day in the accident.

Me :"mom all I remember was seeing my dad smiling and I was watching the sunset with him ... Then I don't know what happened..."

Since I rememberd the image of my dad Tears fell down my left eye.

Mom :"... The day of the accident ... While you and your dad was driving home a 19 year old boy was speeding and you too just walkin at the green light  and he skipped the traffic light and you both crashed the boy unfourtunetly died too.."

*Sudden Flashbacks*

Dad :"LUJAIN PUT YOUR HEAD DOWN!!"

Me :"DAD?"

*Sound of a crash*

......................

I slowly regained conscious and looked at my mom sayin :"I remember ..." I blinked and tears fell down my cheek.

my mom hugged me and I was deadly silent tears were just streaming down my face. I never knew what its like to lose someone so close to my heart until I lost the best friend I ever had.....
 
To be Continued ...

Once Upon a Dream Ch.2

just when I thought things were falling in place, I noticed how yousif was treating me like he doesn't care about me and talks to me bluntly  he just goes out and has fun sometimes he never replies to me I got upset one day and called Noor.

It was ringing and Noor picked up.
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Noor :"hello ?"

Me :"hey .."

Noor :"hey wait ...... were u crying?"

Me :"ahh ..." I teared on the phone.

Noor :"hay hay stop, tell me what happened?"

Me :"yousif"

Noor :"ugh what did he do now?"

Me :"we had a fight and he called me stupid and worthless I only asked about him"

Noor :"WHAT?"

Me :"yea ..." I cried

Noor :"Jojo baby don't cry plz plz I'm coming over okia?"

Me :"okai"
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after 10 min noor arrived to my house and came up to my room she saw me crying and hurt I ran to her hugged her and cried.

noor tapped my back

Noor :"shhhhhh everything's gonna be okai come here"

she held me and we sat in my bed.

Noor :"sweetie jojo tell me what happened exactly?"

I teared while looking at her

Me :"ahh umm well ...."

I told her the whole story how he started treating me coldly and cursing me a lot I never thought he's do that I always had this perfect image of him cause I loved him.


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-StoryInterruption- 
I was stupid at that time I was blind by my idiotic choices and feelings I never thought about my future I wasn't even worried about anything I thought life can wait and nothing can go wrong, being spoiled by my dad can effect with my choices in life I thought I can get anything I wanted it was the worst thing about being me. My dad is so close to me I love him so dearly we have this strong daughter father bond my mom gets jealous sometimes I really loved my dad and my dad loved spoiling me cause I'm his only girl our relationship was very strong.
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-BackToStory-

After explaining what happened with me to noor I remembered my dad he said he wanted to talk to me about something I excused noor and went to see my dad.

I knocked the door 

Dad :"come int?"

{I hope its nothing serious}

Me :"hmm?"

Dad :"listen sweetie I know you decided to postpone goin to college and I understand you need time to decide where you wanna go but time is precious and I don't wan you to waste it and end up regretting it so thats what I want u to apply to college for the second semester cause I want whats best for you please think about it okai?"

Me :"ummm enshallah I'll think about it"

Dad :"come here my little angel"

He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me so tight

Dad :" I love you"

I heard "ehmmmm" and a footstep

it was my mom she interrupted us smirking saying :"and here's he goes again neglecting me and loving his daughter" 

Dad :"come here you too ur my other angel"

Mom had a shy face

Me :"OKAY BYE!"

they laughed 

I went to my room after talking to my dad I thought about what he said but I didn't wanna change my mind I was happy being free from studying and having the guy I always wanted.

I looked at my iPhone then remembered our fight it just happened too fast.

-thoughts were going through my mind-
was he playing with me? was everything yousif said was a lie ? I thought he was better than that he wouldn't ever treat me like that .. do I really deserve that?

I suddenly heard my phone vibrate it was text from yousif.
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Yousif :"baby lujain I just wanted to say I'm sorry about the way I acted When I'm angry I tend to say really mean thingshopefully  you'll forgive me"
Lujain :"hm ? yea sure oki"
Yousif :"will you forgive me baby?"
Lujain :"ummmm okai hehe I forgive u and I love you yousif"
Yousif :"I love you so much my beautiful angel"
Lujain :"i love you more <3"

I couldn't help it but smile I really do love him
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I went inside my room smiling noor saw me

Noor :"haa u feel better?"

she smiled

Me :"yea look" I handed her my phone

Noor :" sigh jojo .. I ... I think you should stay away from him"

Me :"what? Why.. i love him .."

Noor :"but does he?"

Me :"yea he told me.."

Noor :"does he show it instead of just saying?"

I hesitated

Me :"... umm..."

Noor :"listen to me and tell him you want a break.. just think for a while stop it and think , think about ur future for once make a plan!!!"

Me :"I'm not listening to this"

Noor :"ur so stubborn thats its so irritating"

Me :"I love him what can I do!!"


I Never listen to noor when she says anything about him I automatically thinks its wrong because I love him, but with time I noticed yousif how he started to act weird as if he was hiding something I felt something was wrong but I didn't say a thing cause I trusted him.

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Spring break was almost over and college was about to start and I still haven't applied to any college I was relaxed and happy with the situation till one day when I went out with noor to 360 mall it was friday night and it was crowded I walked with her jocking and laughing and I saw someone familiar in the corner away from people I recognized the voice I came closer and saw yousif with a girl they were 10 inches away from each other I couldn't believe my eyes my heart was aching the feeling in my heart spread around my body causing it to shiver .... I froze what was right infront of me?

I came closer and saw him ... were my eyes deceiving me ? or is this a dream? how could he .. how dare he ...

I grabbed noor before he could see me and left in a rush I went to her car sat there in silence noor was staring at me.

Noor's POV :

omg was it real ? .... was it him ? ... I knew something wasn't right from the begging I don't want her to feel this way I never did i only wish I could take it all back and take back the day I told her to talk to him it was all my fault.

Me :"Lujain?"

she was silent ..

I touched her shoulder slowly.

Lujain :"w-what?"

Me :"are you okai?"

Lujain :"yea I'm fine .."

Me :"I know ur not ..."

Lujain :"lets just drive home"

I drove her back home .. on the way I could feel the pain she was feeling but no word came out from her she really did love him.

Lujain's POV :

I really did love him... how could I not see it I still can't believe it maybe its someone else maybe it wasn't him.

I arrived home and said nothing to noor she understood my silence, I went to my room and salim came my lil brother.

Salim :"jojo dad wants to talk to you"

I wasn't in the mood for anything but I went to see what my dad wanted.

I knocked the door.

Dad :"jojo sweetie there's something I really wanna do with you to bring back old memories "

Me :"what do you mean dad"

Dad :"do you remember "albahara" the beach side playground place where I used to take it when you were young it was your favorite place "

Me :"hehe yea dad I loved it when I was little now I'm old xD"

Dad :"haha I know sweetie actually the placed changed alot I just wanted to go there for olds times sake I wanna remember and get the old vibe with you and also spend some quality time with you so what do you say?"

Me :"how can I refuse sure ofc dad ?"

he smiled at me and I hugged him.

Me :"I love you daddy ... so much"

Dad :"I love you too jojo more than you'll ever know"

I teared while hugging my dad cause of today what happened with yousif and I needed a hug my dad made me feel so much better his hugs are unforgettable.

I went to my room I unlocked my iPhone and saw a text from yosif I had an angry expression saying to myself.

"What the hell does he want now?"
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Yousif :"Hey baby I miss u where r you?"
Lujain :"hi lol I was out :)"
Yousif :"whats up with the shitty attitude?"
Lujain :"my attitude isn't shitty ok? Yours is"
Yousif :"you better wash your mouth before talking to me this way"
Lujain :"u had fun today? with that girl?"
Yousif :"what girl?"
Lujain :"don't play stupid I saw you two"
Yousif :"and what makes you so sure that it was me?? You have no proof and I wasn't there :)"
Lujain :"you mean it wasn't you in 360 mall today?"
Yousif :"no"
Lujain :"omg I'm so sorry"
Yousif :"I forgive you next time don't accuse me of cheating"
Lujain :"I'm so sorry baby I promise I won't"

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When I closed the chat and told noor about everything she said she didn't believe him, that night I felt something too, something was wrong like something bad was going to happen I slept and woke up the next day I saw a notification from noor, I unlocked my iPhone and read.

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Noor :"look I felt something was off too so I double checked and asked his mom where he was out last night and guess what she told me he was at 360 mall ... well here's proof he was lying .."
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a tear streamed down my face I didn't wanna believe it I loved him I still do I don't want to read anymore or listen I....

Someone knocked my door it was my dad I whipped away my tears quickly and dad came in.

Dad :"hey lujain .. You better get ready cause we're goin out soon.."

Me :"enshallah dad"

I smiled

when he left the room I didn't say anything to yosuif or even a hello .. I just wanted to spend time with my dad and forget about last night.

I took a shower then calmed my hair and wore my blue dark jeans and a flowery top and ponytailed my hair and got ready I went downstairs.

Dad :"start up the car I'll just grab some stuff i need and come"

Me :"enshallah"

I went and started the car dad came after me and we drive to albahara ... while driving I closed my phone I didn't want any text anything interrupting my special time with dad we talked and it just gave me a back to life feeling like I felt so happy with dad.

when we arrived closely to the beach I took the camera and took a pic of my dad smiling and waving while the sea shore was behind him I loved that pic I held my dad's arm and walked with him we chatted.

Dad :"lujain remember this place where the old game you loved was here and you begged me to ride?"

Me :"I remember jumpin on your legs beggin please please" 

Dad laughed

Dad :"yea back then you were so tiny my baby ... But just grew up so fast man time really does fly now you're a women I really can't believe it"

Me :"no don't worry I'm still a kid"

I joked around and giggled

Dad :"hahaha may god protect you .."

he leaned over and hugged me.

after us chatting we went to grab us lunch from the nearest restaurant we ate and had fun then it got a lil dark sunset ahead us dad wanted to go home I didn't want to because then I'd have to face yousif and noor and I just loved the moments I spent with dad it made me forget everything like I wish it never ended.

we went to the car and sat I buckled my seat belts.

Dad :"Lujain did you think about the talk we had about your college and your decisions? .. "

Me :"yea dad .. I just don't have college in my head right now at all"

Dad :"honey I don't want anything but the best for you and you're future I realized time really does fly and I really don't want you to regret anything I love you and wish you all greatness and joy in life"

I looked at dad and smiled I could see how badly he wanted this for me from his eyes.

while driving back home I smiled cause I was so lucky to have a wonderful dad.

I was looking out the window and we were stopping at a red light when we drove forward I saw the beautiful sunset infront of me.

Me :"hey dad look at this beautiful sunset.."

suddenly I heard ...

















LUJAIN PUT YOUR HEAD DOWN ....












DAD??










*sound of a crash*









a car hit us.