Once Upon A Dream Ch.6

Hearing the sound of waves crashing into the shore I walk towards that melody sound looking down at my feet feeling the warm sand rubbing through my toes and feeling the sun's beam kissing my skin giving it that dewy glow.

I suddenly hear someone say

"lujain... come here sweetie I have something to show you"

Turning around I saw my dad shout out to me with his perky face expression that he always has when he's happy. I saw him filled with joy as if nothing ever happened I walked towards him reaching my arm to his .... He gave me strawberries my favorite fruite.

Holdin one piece getting it close to my mouth I took the first bite then suddenly.... 

 Everything went black...












"Where did the sun go??? I can't see"












I screamed calling my dad he vanished too...









"DAD?"






"DADDY?"







"DAAD WHERE R U? I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING...."





Suddenly a dark blue light shined the place I looked down at my hand the strawberry was gone Instead there was a dead bug bite in half while my hands were covred in its blood

I started coughing throwing the bug on the ground whipping my hands that were coverd in its blood 







*coughs*

Feeling so scared I saw a door close by I opened it and saw blood on the floor bad stench all over the room and disgusting insects sworming on the wall I couldn't believe my eyes I was too frightened  to go in when I felt a push behind me that got me down on my knees in that room looking behind I see the door close by its self slowly....








looking infront ..











I saw a crippled creature walking then sitting on his knees his back was all bones and his skin looks dead as if it was been burned .... I felt so scared..







it was eating those insects on the wall ..

I got up slowly to try to leave backing away slowly shivring and my heart was racing I just wanted to find my dad...




walking backwards towards the door I reached for the handle and there was nothing there turning around to see a black wall ....





my heart raced as I felt a breath close to my face whispering ...










"you're not going anywhere" with an old ashy creepy voice







I closed my eyes saying "this is just a dream wake you lujain please wake up"

I suddenly heard my dad call my name ..










"lujain"









"DAD? where are you"









I turned around

























To see his body covered with blood on the floor sitting on top of him that demon creature, he looked at my face with his black cold eyes and his fangs showing in his mouth drooling blood saying



"he's GONE...."





suddenly he got down on his 4 feet breaking his neck I heard a loud noise coming from the bones of his body 

I couldn't move It like I was paralized my heart beats was so fast that I could hear them from tm ear drums...

"HEEEEEELP MEEEEEE PLEASE" shouting out help when no one was there in the dark....

The creature ran towards me with his 4 feet so fast opening his mouth















I screamed " DAAAAAAAAAAAD"







*Beeep Beeep Beeep*








I woke up








"it was just a nightmare"


I was sweating like a pig my heart was racing I teared.


my mom suddenly rushed in my room




"lujain?? are you okai I heard you scream!!"


I started crying telling my mom all about that nightmare

Once Upon A Dream Ch.5

A week later after college started..

Professor :"now since this is a lab class and by now you got to know the campus and students well  you all must be assigned to a partners for this whole semester each student has to have  1 partner only so pick your partners write your names and give the papers to me"

Watching everyone pick their partners while I was at the back not knowing who to partner with ... I felt a poke on my back it was khalid.

Khalid :"hello miss grumpy.."

Me :"hello mr.smirky .. Yea what do u want?"

Suddenly a girl interrupts us

Her :"hey khalid will you be my partner?"

Looking at how she was dressed with those tight skinny jeans and that V cut shirt that goes down to her belly showing her boobs and figure more than she should and the way she talks leaning over him the relationship seems to be intemate.

Khalid didn't look at her the way I did its like he didn't pay attention to her..

Her :"hello?? Khalood im right here you forgot?"

Him :"oh right how could I forget sorry lujain this is sara .. My friend.."

Sara :"aha lujain you're new here right?"

Me :"yea"

Sara :"well if you need or want anything give me a call and im sure us girls would have alot of fun together"

I felt uncomfortable by the way she talks to me as if I was a threat to her

Sara :"so yea khalid will you?l

"Actually I'm still deciding on who to pick partners with so I'll get back on you with that" he replied

Seeing a grungy look on sara's face she acted smiley

Sara :"sure if you decided call me" 

She blew a kiss in the air to him and left

Me :"is that really your friend?" 

Khalid :"to be honest she thinks we're more but I don't She's not my type but she doenst seem to get that"

Me :"oh okai.. Anyways what did you want?"

"you're really a tough girl to talk to u know that.." Nodding his head while smiling

Me :"well simple .. Don't talk to me"

"Ouch" he laughed

I couldn't help but giggle I was so mean to him I don't even know why..

I suddenly saw his face expression change from smiling to a straight face while looking at me. 

Me :"are you okai?"

Khalid :"no its just...."

Me :"what?"

Khalid :"its the first time I saw you actually smile and laugh .. Im serious no joking around you have the most beautiful smile why don't you smile more often? Its seems like you're always sad or misreble.."

The class was over and I didn't feel good from what he said cause I remembered what happened this past month..

Me :"excuse me I gotta go.."

Khalid :" wait lujain...!!"

I rushed to leave the class I went outside to catch some air I went to sit under a tree and I started tearing ...

-LittleVoiceInMyHead-

Lujain stop it .. You're stronger than this you need to hold yourself together you're okai ... I'm okai..

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I saw a shadow behind me coming closer I turned to see khalid.

Him :"hey ... Did I upset you with something that I said? Are you okai??"

Me :"why do you keep following me leave me alone I don't want anyone helping me or talking to me just leave.. just go.." 

Sitting back at the ground giving him my back I cried softly

Whispering :"he left"

Khalid came closer putting his hand on my back :"who left lujain?"

Me :"why are you still doing here?"

He reached his hand towards my face whiping the tear that fell down.

Him :"I don't wanna bother you or make you feel uncomfertable but I'm sorry I can't leave you like this feeling this way knowing I may have caused it I'll be here all day if it takes to make u feel better or to get you to talk about whats bothring you..I know I may seem like the annoying guy who doesn't seem to give up but to be honest I really like you thats why you see me acting all stupid and goofy ..so please tell me whats wrong?"

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-SoulfulVoice-

I know I changed.. people do change but I don't think that this change was better for me I realized I pushed people away alot and I ended up alone and that was all my fault I can't blame anyone for that mistake but I shouldn't blame me also. Maybe opening up to someone new might change things for me .. It might change me .. 

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"my dad .... He left" I replied.

Khalid looked at me fully listening while i looked at the campus view..

Me :"he died about a month ago in a car accident I survived and he didn't and things haven't been the same ever since ... he was my best friend .. I felt like I lost a part of me so its like I lost myself .. I can't eat right .. I can't sleep right I hate everything about my house because it reminds me of him I tried to forget but it only makes it worse.."

Not controlling my tears they kept streaming down my face as if I had no longer control of my body..

I started crying saying ..

"I don't understand why .. Why does this happen? I lost all hope in life now I only see death ahead I feel dead inside khalid"

I looked at him tearing "I don't wanna feel this pain anymore.." 

He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me like I've never been hugged before

Him :"I can't change the past lujain but If I could bring back your dad I promise I would ... but I can promise you this even though you still don't know me well I promise to be here for you whenever you need me you be damn sure of that.."

he kept hugging me till I stopped crying

Once Upon A Dream Ch.4

My mom spent that whole day trying to make me feel better while I know deep down inside her she's so heart broken and damaged she was strong in front of me but I can feel the pain inside her and I could see it in her eyes.

After spending 2 days in the hospital the thought of my dad being gone still hasn't entered my mind I still won't and can't accept it.

2nd day in the hospital bed.

Me :"mom .. I wanna tell you something"

Mom :"tell me sweetie "

Me :"I wanna apply to college and go on sunday"

Mom :"lujain! You just survived an accident and u can barely walk straight and you wanna go to college all of a sudden? Why now?"

I looked at my mom's eyes with an emotional expression but held my tears from falling.

Me :"because thats what my dad would have wanted me to do ...  Thats his dream and that's the one thing I will do from now I've wasted time all this time I've wasted it wanting to relax not caring about my future and on and on my dad keeps telling me don't waste ur time ur precious time I didn't even ..."

I wiped the tear that fell on my cheek and continued.

"Care about what he said ... This is his dream his last wish that he asked me to do and I will do it I promise I will I promise dad" 

I looked at the sealing.

My mom leaned over and sat next to me in bed hugging me and saying :"I understand ... Alright But u'll apply to next year's semester.."

Me :"no mom I wanna go this semester not next years"

Mom :"sweetie u know I want you to go to college more than anything but now its. Atough time for you look at u! You're..."

I interrupted my mom.

Me :"i'm fine mom I'm fine I will be fine enshallah please just do this one thing for me wallah I promise I won't ask for anything else.."

I kissed my mom's forehead and hugged her.

Mom :"enshallah sweetie ... Enshallah"

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-Soulful Voice-

I know applying to college right now is something no one would have ever expected me to do, but now I realize how little and short life can be and how much time I've wasted with everything I did. I didn't just decide this for my dad but I decided it for me too because I know something was missing in my life I felt it. All this time dad was just trying to make me see how time can pass and things can change so fast one minute he was there the next he's all gone I know now I know what I should do.

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After few hours I had a visitor come in.

The door knocked I saw noor enter.

Noor :"ahh I was worried about what happened thank god your okai..."

She rushed over to me and hugged me so tight.

{ her hug ahh her hug I've missed it I need it }

Noor held my head and looked into my eyes I saw her tearing.

Noor :"you don't know how I reacted when I knew about the accident lujain ... Elhmdallah you're okai ... Are you feeling any better now?"

Me :"yea I'm much better and fine.. Elhmdallah"

Noor :"umm I'm sorry about your dad ... I know he meant alot to you"

I couldn't help but tear infront of her the way she said it just made me realize that I can no longer see him again ...

Noor :"I'm so sorry lujain shhhh don't cry"

She hugged me.

Me :"I'm sorry too..."

We sat and talked about everything and suddenly noor brought up yousif.

Noor :"lujain umm yousif is worried like alot you don't wanna Talk to him or something?"

Me :"no... I want u to tell him thank u but no thanx I don't want him in my life anymore it wont work and I'm not thinking about any guy or relationships or love and l that crap I just reazlied lifes too short why waste it on stuff thats not worth it.. I'm just gonna focus about college and yea"

Noor :"alright"

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Days past and I got accepted in a private art college I never thought I'd end up in an art college even though I knew how to draw all that stuff since I was little but it never crossed my mind.

The first day of college 

I wore my black jeans a white tank top and a beanie I know its not my usual outfit but alot has changed since my dad died including me...

I grabbed my headphones and bag went to hug and kiss my mom before I head out and left with driver so he'd drop me off .. On our way I put on my headphones and played "do it all again" - Mr.probz ...

85, something wrong

mommy cryin, daddy gone

It wasn't me, nose bleeds

Empty fridge, no groceries

Teardrops running down my face

It's just one of those days

If you and me would meet someday

I think the first thing you would say is something like...

I have made some mistakes in the past

but something that is cannot change

I've tried to do the best that I can 

to wish it all away...

Staring at the window emotionless as I see the wind blow the leaves when I heard the driver say we're close get ready ..

I held my bag and he dropped me at the front door I was amazed of how the beautiful campus was so I walked around before my first class and saw a tree from a far I got close and sat under it while listening to some music when my phone vibrated..

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Noor :"hey hows college so far?"

Me:"hey well I just arrived you ask me after I finished the day haha"

Noor :"Lol yea just wanted to check on you and see how you were doing .."

Me :"everything seems okai till now hopefully my classes will be good too"

Noor :"yea hopefully.."

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Suddenly I heard someone whisper "pssst psst" 

I looked around to find no one there I was frightened I stood up searching left and right no one was close to me... 

I felt a rock on my left shoulder as if someone hit me I turned around and someone said "up here"

I looked up at the tree and saw a guy with deep brown hair and hazel eyes wearing a black shirt and jeans holding a book sitting on the branch ..

Me :"you scared me !!!"

Him :"sorry about that Just wanted to tell you that you're music was too loud.."

Me :"excuse me What loud? I had my headphones on?"

Him :"well I guess you put it at high volume that I can it hear it from way up here and It was disturbing my reading time"

"Oh really.." I replied with an irritated face 

Him : "yup"

Me :"I'm sorry but I don't think my music was disturbing anybody and I'm not apologizing from something I didn't do wrong.. Okai!"

Him :"haha well you seem to be like an angry girl .. Are you usually like that?"

Me : "me? Angry? .. Dude you don't even know me .. look I'm gonna change my spot now enjoy reading your ......."

I looked at the book he was holding and continued : "beautiful disaster.."

he smiled as if he just heard a joke I replied :"did I say something funny?"

him :"well ... you look cute when you're irritated"

Me :"okai... byee"

I left smiling a little but didn't want him to see me smiling because he irritated me and I wasn't in the mood I looked back at the tree and its like he vanished ..

walking towards my class I saw so many girls and boys chatting and smiling and I felt dead inside watching their expressions, laughs and the positivity as if the world was perfect while my world was shattered. 

I entered the class found a seat in the back and sat when the doctor came and introduced himself and explained the subject I kept hearing a squeak of a chair behind me that at some point it pissed me off so I turned around and it was him again.

{ great now this guy is gonna ruin my whole semester cause of his annoyingness } 

"excuse me please stop making that sound" asking him politely

the guy seemed all smirky and happy "sure thing ... after you tell me your name?"

"lujain" I replied quick to make him quit that noise

he smiled "beautiful name I'm khalid, nice to meet you"

Me :"I wish I can say the same .." giving him my back to continue with the lecture

when class was over I got out to text noor when khalid suddenly interrupted my way 

Khalid :"hey"

Me :"you're in my way .."

Khalid :"haha I wasn't wrong when I said you're an angry grumpy girl"

Me :"And I wasn't wrong when I said you're annoying..."

He laughed 

Me :"now why do you keep annoying me is there something you want?"

Khalid :"well ... I wanted to apologize for how much I annoyed you today I can be like that when I like someone I guess .. Irritating , annoying, self centered that's how I act but anyways really sorry didn't wanna cause you any discomfort."

Me :"well apology accepted now please I'll be on my way"

I left remembering yousif when khalid he said he liked me ..how he cheated how badly I was treated I felt rage sad angry all of the negative emotions piled up 

He smiled at my face again as if I'm the reason behind how he's always smiley and perky ... But somehow .. His smile gives me hope .. At least some hope in this hopeless world.