Once Upon a Dream Ch.3

Have you ever felt like at some point everything just stopped ..... time, the world, movement and everything it all came to peace. Its as if all the problems in the world disappeared and no noise nothing just silence.














The world was finally at peace it was so silent till I heard.












"lujain .... "












"hello? .... can you hear me?"










"Lujain?"








The noise came back I slowly began opening my eyes.

{ why does my right eye hurt? why can I only see with my left eye? }

I only saw blurred images I think I heard a man call my name who is he?

I closed my eyes and the silence came back.











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-SoulfulVoice-
Time ... Its so complicated not as simple as I thought it was. Time moves fast in wonderful moments and slow in sad moments. It never stops yet It does stop when things fall apart at least thats what we feel. Time is what we all thought we have, and we don't realize we don't have much until its too late ... Life is never predictable, all the memories are unforgettable, some feelings are magical everything happens during time.
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"Sweetheart Lujain?"

I opened my eyes...

Me :"mom?"

Mom :"ahh baby...."

she leaned over and hugged me I can only see her with my left eye.

{ I heard my mom crying why is she crying? }

Me :"mom? ... Wh.. What happebed?"

Mom :"alhamdallah you're okai ..."

while crying she hugged me and kept saying elhmdallah.

Me :"mom?"

{ ouch my head ahh .. }

Mom :" ..... lujain you were in a car accident"

{ omg ... What... ahh where's my dad? }

Me :"my head ugh it hurts .. Mom where's dad?"

Mom's tears kept streaming down her face the look on her eyes showed that something wasn't right she was silent lookin down.

Me :"mom tell me where's dad?"

Mom :"ah .. jojo he .."

she hesitated.

Me :"mom tell me!!"

before she could say a word the door knocked it was my two lil brothers and the doctor my brothers hugged me.

Doctore :"how are you feeling lujain?"

Me :"my right eye hurts .. and my head too but where's my dad"

Doctor :"oh well u had a surgery few hours ago u had to have stitches and fix the glass that hit ur eye and don't worry u'll see in that eye for after few weeks I'll give you some painkillers for ur head u might experience some headache and dizziness u had a bruce in ur head because of the accident u hit ur head very hard u also have a broken leg but nothing serious you will be fine enshallah don't worry lujain rest ur head u need to relax now.."

Me :"but doctor where's my dad no one answered me I wanna know if he's okai?"

Doctor :"may I have a word with your mom first?"

Me :"okai"

they went out the room leaving me with salim and wahab.

{ I was wondering why didn't they tell me was dad okai ? is he okai ? I wanna know I can't bare to wait any longer }

they came back and the doctor looked at me.

Doctor :"I'm sorry lujain ... But ur dad passed away in the accident.."

Dear god what did I just hear?

I looked at my mom saw her crying ...

Me :"mom ? He's joking right??"

Mom looked at me and came closer tearing.

Mom :"no lujain ... Your dad ... " she cried

I looked at her

Mom :"died he couldn't make it because he was protecting u when the car hit and it caused him internal bleeding I'm so sorry ... "

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-LittleVoiceInMyHead- 

No lujain don't believe them dad didn't leave you he loves u he wouldn't leave you like that .. Dad is okai I'm sure of it they're all lying to me ... They're lying.

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Me :"no mom ... I don't believe you I know my dad is here."

I smiled and laughed hysterically 

Mom looked at my doctor then she came closer holding my hand.

Mom :" lujain ... I'm sorry this hurts me more than it hurts u .. Your dad...."

Me :"MOM don't say that word JUST DONT  ... I DONT BELIEVE IT OR ANY OF YOU"

Tears slowly streamed down my left eye .. I just can't. This is not real I don't believe it.

Me :"i beg you mom tell me your joking and that its not truue..."

I kissed her hand.

I shaked while holding my mom's hand the tears prevented me from seeing her clearly.

Mom cried and said :"lujain i'm so sorry ..."

The word killed me for the time I felt like I have died inside.. How could this be the man who raised me has gone away forever ... How could this be the best friend I ever had left me just like that .. My  dad... !!! 

*Sudden Flashbacks*

Dad :"lujain la don't open your eyes wait and see what I got you"

Dad was covering my eyes.

Me :"Lemme seee!!!"

Dad moved his hands away.

The most amazing bicycle right infromt of me I was 8 years old.

..............

Me :"dad don't forget BIG MAAAC OKAI???"

Dad :"i knooooow stop repeating it xD"

.................

Dad kissed my forehead in bed.

Dad :"goodnight my angel.. I love you"

Me :"I love u too daddy.."

............

Graduation party dad looked at me tearing for the first time.

Dad :"I can't believe my babygirl is all grown up"

He hugged me so tight and I wouldn't let go.

Me :"I love u dad so much"

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"Lujain?"

I heard the doctor call me.

I started crying on the bed screaming at the top of my lungs.

"EVERYBODY GET OUT .. GET OUT"

Everyone gave me my space and got out my mom was the last one to go out before she went out she looked at me and opened her mouth she was about to say something.

Me :"Mom don't ... Don't say anything please" i said it while tearing and crying.

She left the room.

I held the pillow and screamed throwing the pillow on the flower vase breaking it.

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-SoulfulVoice-

Never did I thought I would ever lose my dad. He was the best friend I ever had he never let me down sure we fight sometimes and disagree but no relationship is perfect. I loved him dearly that I couldn't believe it when mom told me he's gone the thought of it ma dashat 3agly and it still didn't. How could this happen how could he be gone? How did he leave like that? The only person who made me feel comfertable gave advices he didn't want anything but the best for me he's gone now. Its like a hole has been made in my heart and that hole can never be sealed until my dad is here again filling it with love and care.

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I was shaking so hard and my heart couldn't bare with the news. I held my chest and whipped on it slowly saying :"please heart stop hurting me ur killing me ... Please stop the pain please go away"

The tears wouldn't stop streaming ... I closed my eyes and fell asleep all of a sudden.

Mom's (POV) :

I went out with the doctor when lujain wanted to be alone.

The look on my daughters face damaged my heart even more after when they told me my husband has passed away no mother deserves this, no mother should suffer from the pain I suffered from its unbearable knowing the man you love died and seeing how broken and hurt ur kids are and how ur supposed to be the strong one in the family holding it together.

I cried away from my kids and sat on the floor.

I held my head crying my eyes off I should be holding on not losing it but I just love him so much and having my kids to grow up without their dad around them is hard and raising them alone how am I supposed to do that? I need him to be there ... i need you.

I wipped away my tears and talked to the doctor.

Doctor :"miss sara (mom) ur daughter didn't need to know the news now she's in a very serious condition all she needs now is a rest and I'm sorry for ur loss"

Me :"thankyou"

I never stopped tearing since I found out the news yesterday about mohammad the love of my life.

I looked at the window in my daughters hospital room I saw her sleeping. I never knew things would turn out this way.

I came in her room and told my sister to take wahab and salim to her house for the night I wanted to spend the night with my daughter not leaving her alone she needs me and I will be strong for her.


Lujain's POV :

I woke up the next day and I saw my mom holding my hand in the hospital bed and sleeping she looked so tired and the way she slept at night broke my heart she never left me even when I said I didn't want anyone around.

I moved my hand saying :"mom? Wakeup!"

My mom jumped :"ahh whats wrong??"

Me :"no no its just the way you're sleeping it hurting your neck try to sleep on the couch its better."

Mom :"don't worry about me sweetie I'm fine now tell me are you okai? Do u feel better?"

I kissed her hand saying :"Thank you ... "

Mom :"don't thank me I'm your mom I'll always be here for you"

I sat that morning with my mom wanted to know what happened the other day in the accident.

Me :"mom all I remember was seeing my dad smiling and I was watching the sunset with him ... Then I don't know what happened..."

Since I rememberd the image of my dad Tears fell down my left eye.

Mom :"... The day of the accident ... While you and your dad was driving home a 19 year old boy was speeding and you too just walkin at the green light  and he skipped the traffic light and you both crashed the boy unfourtunetly died too.."

*Sudden Flashbacks*

Dad :"LUJAIN PUT YOUR HEAD DOWN!!"

Me :"DAD?"

*Sound of a crash*

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I slowly regained conscious and looked at my mom sayin :"I remember ..." I blinked and tears fell down my cheek.

my mom hugged me and I was deadly silent tears were just streaming down my face. I never knew what its like to lose someone so close to my heart until I lost the best friend I ever had.....
 
To be Continued ...