Once Upon A Dream Ch.5

A week later after college started..

Professor :"now since this is a lab class and by now you got to know the campus and students well  you all must be assigned to a partners for this whole semester each student has to have  1 partner only so pick your partners write your names and give the papers to me"

Watching everyone pick their partners while I was at the back not knowing who to partner with ... I felt a poke on my back it was khalid.

Khalid :"hello miss grumpy.."

Me :"hello mr.smirky .. Yea what do u want?"

Suddenly a girl interrupts us

Her :"hey khalid will you be my partner?"

Looking at how she was dressed with those tight skinny jeans and that V cut shirt that goes down to her belly showing her boobs and figure more than she should and the way she talks leaning over him the relationship seems to be intemate.

Khalid didn't look at her the way I did its like he didn't pay attention to her..

Her :"hello?? Khalood im right here you forgot?"

Him :"oh right how could I forget sorry lujain this is sara .. My friend.."

Sara :"aha lujain you're new here right?"

Me :"yea"

Sara :"well if you need or want anything give me a call and im sure us girls would have alot of fun together"

I felt uncomfortable by the way she talks to me as if I was a threat to her

Sara :"so yea khalid will you?l

"Actually I'm still deciding on who to pick partners with so I'll get back on you with that" he replied

Seeing a grungy look on sara's face she acted smiley

Sara :"sure if you decided call me" 

She blew a kiss in the air to him and left

Me :"is that really your friend?" 

Khalid :"to be honest she thinks we're more but I don't She's not my type but she doenst seem to get that"

Me :"oh okai.. Anyways what did you want?"

"you're really a tough girl to talk to u know that.." Nodding his head while smiling

Me :"well simple .. Don't talk to me"

"Ouch" he laughed

I couldn't help but giggle I was so mean to him I don't even know why..

I suddenly saw his face expression change from smiling to a straight face while looking at me. 

Me :"are you okai?"

Khalid :"no its just...."

Me :"what?"

Khalid :"its the first time I saw you actually smile and laugh .. Im serious no joking around you have the most beautiful smile why don't you smile more often? Its seems like you're always sad or misreble.."

The class was over and I didn't feel good from what he said cause I remembered what happened this past month..

Me :"excuse me I gotta go.."

Khalid :" wait lujain...!!"

I rushed to leave the class I went outside to catch some air I went to sit under a tree and I started tearing ...

-LittleVoiceInMyHead-

Lujain stop it .. You're stronger than this you need to hold yourself together you're okai ... I'm okai..

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I saw a shadow behind me coming closer I turned to see khalid.

Him :"hey ... Did I upset you with something that I said? Are you okai??"

Me :"why do you keep following me leave me alone I don't want anyone helping me or talking to me just leave.. just go.." 

Sitting back at the ground giving him my back I cried softly

Whispering :"he left"

Khalid came closer putting his hand on my back :"who left lujain?"

Me :"why are you still doing here?"

He reached his hand towards my face whiping the tear that fell down.

Him :"I don't wanna bother you or make you feel uncomfertable but I'm sorry I can't leave you like this feeling this way knowing I may have caused it I'll be here all day if it takes to make u feel better or to get you to talk about whats bothring you..I know I may seem like the annoying guy who doesn't seem to give up but to be honest I really like you thats why you see me acting all stupid and goofy ..so please tell me whats wrong?"

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-SoulfulVoice-

I know I changed.. people do change but I don't think that this change was better for me I realized I pushed people away alot and I ended up alone and that was all my fault I can't blame anyone for that mistake but I shouldn't blame me also. Maybe opening up to someone new might change things for me .. It might change me .. 

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"my dad .... He left" I replied.

Khalid looked at me fully listening while i looked at the campus view..

Me :"he died about a month ago in a car accident I survived and he didn't and things haven't been the same ever since ... he was my best friend .. I felt like I lost a part of me so its like I lost myself .. I can't eat right .. I can't sleep right I hate everything about my house because it reminds me of him I tried to forget but it only makes it worse.."

Not controlling my tears they kept streaming down my face as if I had no longer control of my body..

I started crying saying ..

"I don't understand why .. Why does this happen? I lost all hope in life now I only see death ahead I feel dead inside khalid"

I looked at him tearing "I don't wanna feel this pain anymore.." 

He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me like I've never been hugged before

Him :"I can't change the past lujain but If I could bring back your dad I promise I would ... but I can promise you this even though you still don't know me well I promise to be here for you whenever you need me you be damn sure of that.."

he kept hugging me till I stopped crying