Me :"3awash shyaybich baitna??"
3aysha :"I know everything..."
Me :"how?"
3aysha :"jasim gal ly.. W gal ly ayeech w ma a5aleech bro7ich you could use a friend right now"
My eyes started tearing and my face got pail 3aysha came and hugged me.
3aysha :"are you okay manool?"
I whiped my tears away.
Me :"yea I'm okay I'm just so confused.."
I went up to my room with 3aysha and we talked ... After a while my mom and dad came it was 10 pm.
I saw my mom go to her room fast and dad came to my room.
Dad :"hala 3aysha 3indna?"
3aysha :"ee hala 3amy 7mdallah 3al salama"
Dad :"allah ysalmich"
3aysha :"asta2thnkom lazim aroo7 elbait al7een"
I hugged 3aysha and she left.
Dad closed the door and sat. My heart was beating fast I could hear it.
Dad :"manal bagool lich shay w sem3ay 3adil gabil la ta7komeen"
Me :"gool"
Dad :"ana w omich bnet6alag gabil la ttklmain adri enty al7een kobarty w tfhmeen w halshay bainy w bain omich enshallah tefhmeen.."
Me :"adri.."
Dad :"tadreen? :/"
Me :"yuba etha hatha baink w bain omy e7na shno? Ma lena ahamya meshaklik ent w omy effects all of us"
Dad :"entaw 3yali aham shay b7ayati"
Me :"w om 3yalik?"
Dad :"ehya mohema bss entaw aham.."
I looked away with an angry look i didn't want to give my dad that angry look I was holding it in before I lose it.
Me :" yuba enta ma tihtam eb omy lo ehtamait chan t'3a'9ait kel masha3rik w ga3adt ma3ana bss lel2asaf you only care about yourself ma twa8a3t'ha mnik yuba" I said it was I was extremely angry.
Dad :"enty mara7 tfhmeen w mara thanya la t6awleen 9ootich 3alai fahma!!"
Me :"nzain"
He got up and walked away and i was silent the min he left the room and closed the door I held my pillow and Throw it at the door screaming.
"I HATE HIM I HATE MY LIFE I HATE EVERYTHING"
I cried so hard and got so pissed I looked at the book I used to read that my dad gave me and i shred it apart I hated it I hated everything.
Its like my whole world fell apart nothing makes sense anymore....
I wiped my tears and went to my moms room I saw my mom cry Like I never seen seen her that way it Broke my heart it just Broke my heart... Why!!!!!
I went closer and hugged her.
Me :"yuma??"
Mom was crying :"hala 7abeebti"
Me :"yuma la tabcheen please.." I had tears in my eyes.
Mom :"mo beedy 7abeebti mo beedy" she wiped her tears.
I hugged her again.
Mom :"galich?"
Me :"ee laish ysawy chthy ?? Enty shno sawaity.."
Mom :"ma sawait shay allah yahdeeh Madri sh9ar feeh mn ma rad mn elsofar t'3ayar.."
At that moment I was the angriest teenage girl in whole world I lost my mind I wanted to beat up something I couldn't take it.
Mom :"ummm manal I think your dad is back with his old friends... I think ...."
Me :"you think ? You think what?"
Mom :"I think he started drinking again.."
Allaho akbar..
When I was lil my dad made some bad friends he used to Drink Alcohol or Beer alot that he became so drunk he used to scare me and act weird .. It was a looong time ago he stopped for my mom and us since then everything was okay no arguments or anything between my mom and dad.
Now he's back again oh my gosh whats happening...
I left my mom's room fast and ran to my room I stood there in a shock.
My whole body had goosebumps my head couldn't take all of what I just heard breathing the air that I was breathing I couldn't believe it was air either its like my whole world just stopped for a minute everything perfect that i saw it wasn't perfect at all it hurts so much it dosne't just hurt It kills.
Have I been living a lie ?
Life dosen't make sense anymore.
One mintue everything was fine the next its all just wrong.
All these thoughts were spinning in my mind at that moment I fell apart I fell on the floor and I couldn't take it anymore I cried my eyes off and held my head.
I heard my phone rang.
I came closer to grab it and I saw it was 3aysha.
I ignored.
After 2 min Another call.
It was jasim.
I ignored.
Jasim's side :
Wainha? 6awelat ..
Ba7awel akalmha yemken trid.
Me :"manal? 7abeebti? Mawjooda?"
Manal didn't answer.
Wainha????
I tried texting 3aysha :"3awash degat 3ala manal shoofy wainha w enty w9alty elbait?"
3aysha :"ee w9alt laish?"
Me :"mo ga3da trid kilsh!!! Shno 9ar gabil la troo7een?"
3aysha :"oboha dash w kan beykalmha"
Me :"baaaaaaaih gal laha 3awash akeed gal laha byet6algoon"
3aysha :"weeee ee 9a7 yemken okai badig al7een"
She called manal But no answer.
Suddenly I heard my phone rang.
It was manal.
I rushed to pick it up.
Me :"aloo 7abeebti?"
Manal :"jasim ... Help me!!"
Me :"shfeech sh9ar?? Shnoo?!"
Manal :" I cut my arm its bleeding it wont stop shasawy!! It hurts so much"
Me :"YOU CUT SHNOOOO MANAL!!!!!!!!! Shloon tsaween chthy yanaity!!! Laish sawaity chthy mo 7aram 3alaich ma t5afeen 3ala nafsich ma fakartay feeny?"
Manal started crying.
Me :"5ala9 manal oush oush ana yay baitkom okai?"
Manal :"la la la tyee!!"
Me :"5ala9 oush bayee ma agdar a5aleech chthy"
I rushed over manal's house and when I arrived I called her and told her to open her window !
Manal :"ent maynoon wetha a7ad shafik!!"
Me :"ma7ad ra7 yshoofny yala ba6lay eldresha!!"
Manal opened the window they lived in a 1 floor and a basement house so I didn't have to climb I went inside I told manal to lock the door incase someone comes.
I saw her arm filled with blood streaming down her hand while she's pressing on the wound.
I looked into her eyes I could see the pain and suffery she's been through no strength was left for that girl she needed someone something some help.
I saw her tears I came closer and wiped them off her cheeks.
Me :"manal! Why? ..."
Manal :"I don't know what happened to me whats wrong with me I'm not like this I've never cut myself or hurted myself before ... This is not me"
I held her arm and brought a towel with water I placed it on the wound to wipe the blood away then I took my belt off and wrapped it around her arm up her wound to stop the bleeding I put Ideen on the wound so it'll remove all the germs.
Manal :"aaaaahhhh y3awer >.< don't do that ahhhhh"
I put my finger infront of her mouth.
Me :"3e'9ay 9b3y if it hurts alot"
Manal :"no way -.-"
I laughed.
Me :"just do it"
I put my finger on the sideways in her mouth whenever I hurt her arm a lil she bites my finger hard so I'd know I need to go more smoother.
Manal's side:
Omg This is so embarricing I'm biting his finger.
OUUUUUUCH I bite his finger harder this time.
Jasim :"A777777777 9b3y"
Me :"ooooh I'm sorry :("
Jasim took his finger away from my mouth.
It was all bitten.
Maskeen 3a'9aita wayd xD.
Me :"I'm sorry jasim you told me to :("
Jasim :"mn 9ijich ur biting is 3asal"
Damn I got so nervous and felt weird sooooo shy.
Me :"mmmm .."
Jasim :"ashoof est7aity.."
Me :"ee xD"
Jasim and me laughed.
He closed up my cut and wrapped it my arm is all better.
Me :"thank you jasim thank you so much!"
Jasim :"mako thank you baina enty 7abeebti 3yooni lich wallah"
I got shyer.
For a second I forgot what actually happened then I remembered and got upset.
Jasim :"7abeebti?"
Me :"hmm!"
Jasim :"manal shfeech sara7tay..?"
I told jasim everything even the part where how my dad used to drink He was in shock ofc He never thought that .... I made him swear to never tell anyone and he did.
That night was worst night of my life where everything and everyone changed I thought life was simple... But it turned out to be much more complicated I learned that even the closest people who raised you and knew you your whole life can change in a second you'll get disappointed many times and hurt so much but eventually life goes on and having great friends by your side will help you move on along the way I'm so Glad I have jasim and 3aysha by my side.

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