Sunday morning . . .
"Manal manal goomy!!!! Enty fee madrasa today yala goomyy!!" My maid told me.
Me :"haa? Wa5ray banam..!!!"
The maid :"sa3a 7 enty wajd 2a5ar keefik namy!!"
I opened one eye saw the clock it was 7:05.
Me :"OH SHIT!!!! I'm laaate"
I ran to the bathroom and cleaned I wore my clothes took my school bag and was On my way to school while I was in the car I held my phone.
I went and Checked my BBM contacts and saw jasim Leaving me a..
"Good morning manoolty its ur big day first day of ur last second semester at school adri 6weel bss ee xD" msg.
I replied :"eeeeee I'm so happy I'm glad this is my last year..."
Jasim : "yea me too Shidy 7alaich baby and good luck ;*"
I arrived to school and went in I saw 3aysha and all my friends.
6ab3an the word spread my parents got a divorce.
Nora :"hala manal shloonich you okay?"
Me :"tamam yea I'm fine"
And the girls kept on asking me how I was and all that I was a lil uncomfortable about that but 6af.
the bell rang and I went home when I arrived I went inside my house and I remembred ...
"ana w omich bnet6alag ......"
"you don't care about mom!!"
"I HATE HIM I HATE MY LIFE"
"la t6awleen 9ootich 3alai fahma!!!"
.........
flashbacks were spinnning on my mind suddenly a Tear streamed down my face.. I went up to my room I took my clothes off and saw the scar I made The scar will remain my whole life forever because of him.
I heard my mom calling me I went to her room.
I entered and saw my mom on her bed crying. I ran fast towards her.
Me :"yuma shfeeech?? Gooly laish tabcheen??"
Mom handed me a Picture.
I held that picture and was so shocked!!! HOW COULD HE...
I saw a picture My dad and his lebanes Wife! On their wedding he married a lebenes women and 2 holes were made on the women's eye with my dad's cigarette in that picture so we wont know who the women is Oh My Gosh . . .
Ma meda he got married what the hell is this!! How could he , how dare he do this and send it to us.
He wrote behind that picture "I'm sorry"
Well dad apology not accepted, you killed your family :')
Me :" .... 7asby allah w ne3m elwakeel!!"
I threw the picture aside and put my hand on my mouth then slided it up my head holding my head with two hands...
Mom coverd her face.
I had to be strong for mom I haven't shade a tear I held it in I must be strong.
I hugged my mom and she cried on my chest.
Mom :"7asby allah 3alaih allah kareem laish ysawy feeny chthy laish !!" And she cried.
I tapped her back.
Me :"mommy please stop crying 3ashany Its his lost not us he lost a family who cared about him".
Mom :"ee 5ala9 enshallah Mashkoora 7abeebti I love you"
Me :"I love you too mommy so much.."
And we hugged eachother.
I went to my room layed on my bed with a heavy heart and so shocked.
I held my phone i saw a text from jasim.
Jasim :"manal?"
I replied :"yea?"
Jasim :"shitsaweeen?"
Me :"laying in bed so listen abeek twadeeny mokan"
Jasim :"hmm wain?"
Me :"mokan netmaran fee like sowalf boxing"
Jasim :"hmmm oh okay I have a place 5ala9 okay ta3lay sa3a 5 Nadi el***** my cousin works there yegdar y'9ab6 lena mokan private just for us"
Me :"okai.."
I went to my mom's room and asked her I wanted to go to 3aysha's house I had to lie. And she approved.
I got dressed to my training suit and Made a Bun wore a wrest Band and my Comfy sports shoe.
I told the driver to take me there.
When I arrived I saw jasim waiting outside.
Jasim :"hala eb manoolty.."
Me :"lets just go in" i said it with a bit anger.
Jasim :"umm ok"
He took me inside a private boxing place.
I wore boxing gloves and started punching the bag.
each time I punch harder and scream, jasim was looking at me and so surprised he never seen me angry like that.
jasim :"manal ? shway shway 3ala nafsich"
me :"dont worry malik sh'3il"
I kept on punching harder and harder my hand got hurt but I didn't care
"tzawaj wa7da lebnaneya ..."
"he left us I will never forgive him!!"
"ana ba6alg omich"
flashbacks were hunting my mind.
jasim :"manal 7abeebti?"
I kept on punching harder and harder eachtime.
"I HATE HIM I HATE EVERYTHING HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO US"
I hit the punching bag so hard that I felt so much pain ..
me :"AAAAHHHHHHHHHH" I screamed.
jasim :"manal!!!!! shfeech ??"
me :"ma adgar a7arik edy t3awrny 7aaaaaail"
jasim :"let me see"
he held my hand and took the gloves off gently my left hand was hurt he touched it.
me :"a77 a77 a77 dont please it hurts >.<"
jasim :"edich maksoora we must take u to a doctor"
he took me to a doctor to see my hand.
the doctor did an x-ray.
doctor :"looks like her hand is broken we'll have to attach some muscle bones and put the jibs this will hurt a little".
the doctor fixed my hand and it hurted like hell. laf my hand and told me to be careful next time.
the doctor left and jasim took me to his car we sat in silence.
jasim :"manal ?"
me :"na3am!!"
jasim :"sh9ar laish m3a9ba tell me"
a tear dropped from my eyes I held my head and pushed my hair back with my right hand and looked at the window.
jasim :"manal gooly ly 3ashany ?"
Me :"just take me home".
Jasim :"many sayg lama tgoolen ly shfeech?"
Me :"shtabi my life is perfect everything's perfect everyone's perfect its Alllll just too perfect ..." I said it with and angry sarcastic voice.
Jasim :"gooly ly manool gooly 5ala9 laish m3awra rasich".
Me :"haha ana m3awra rasy ???? Looool my dad left us ... He made a promise and he broke it he hurted my mom and he hurted us he married another b***h and said he's sorry!! ... Lool sorry? As if ra7 asam7a 6ool 3omri many msam7ta he lied he lied he's a liar He's not my dad I hate him I hate everhthing you think its easy seeing ur mom cry every freakin day and you can't do anything about it do you even know what its like to have to be the strongest person in the house to keep all held together .. HAAA? DO YOU???" I said it while i was extremely angry and hurt.
Jasim was shocked and was so surprised He looked at me and I looked at the drive way w nazalt rasy.
Me :"you just don't know anything..."
And I teared.
Me :"wadni elbait.."
Jasim Put the car keys in and drove in silence he haven't said a word to me but I could tell his eyes had many words to say.
We arrived close to my home so no one sees he dropped me off I closed the car door and I looked at him he was silent .. I turned around to walk.
Jasim :"manal wait.."
I turned around to face him.
Jasim :".... A7bich..."
I stared at him and turned around and left
And he drove off.
I went home at 9 pm I went to my room and closed the door I layed on my bed I put my headphones on.
I played "Your Love is a Lie" By simple plan and sang along with anger.
You can tell me that there's nobody else
But I feel it
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
But I see it
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
LIE
It's nothing but a LIE!!
I cried I couldn't hold it in any longer I cried so hard that day for 2 hours Till I fell asleep ....
No comments:
Post a Comment