Someone Like You Chapter 28

I fell asleep after crying so hard cause I've never been hurt that much from anyone besides my dad ..

I opened my eyes slowly and I found myself in that bed I slowly remembered what jasim told me I held my head Gosh It hurts so much .. I sat in bed with my head down a Tear streamed down my cheeks and in the floor..

I wiped my cheek and lifted my head up and took a deep breath and smiled then I wiped my smile away ... It hurts to smile it makes me wanna cry more I stood up gently I felt soo dizzy I had to face my family out there they were calling me..

I wore my shoe and calmed my hair and I got out that room I walked slowly to the living room where they all sit my aunts and cousin's and everyone.

While walking .. each step I took Felt heavy its like I was holding a weight and walking I didn't wanna face them or smile I can't smile I can't be strong I was soooo weak.

I entered the living room I only found my mom and my 2 aunts thats it .. I came in

5alty sara :"Halaaa manoooolaa el7elwa"

I smiled

Me :"hey 5alty sara" She opened her arm and hugged me.

I wanted to cry so bad at her chest but I held it I must be strong.

I sat there while they were talking and I didn't smile.

5alty najat :"manool shfeech mtan7a?"

Me :"haa?" i smiled

5alty looked at me

Me :"haha la 5alty bss tawny gayma mn elnoom.."

5alty najat :"bel3ther wayhich maskeen al7een hahahahaha" she laughed

I giggled and smiled and IT HURT ME SO MUCH.

Mom said :"ee 5oo benty nawama kela tnam madri shbefedha.."

"Ahh I don't wanna stay here"

I went outside to the garden .. And i sat belderofa ..

I looked at the sky it was 7 pm at night it was quite.

The pain in my chest wouldn't go away it hurts so much I want it to go away but It can't ...

I started thinking.

"it was my fault all of this wouldn't happen if I hadn't told him I wanted to be his friend It was my fault ..."

I blamed myself Then I got angry and en8ahart.

"Shloon jasim ysawy feeny chthy ma y7iss feeny? Wallah 7aram 3alaih galbi y3awrny abi yrd ly abi ygool tara ga3d at'3ashmar ma3ach now he's out there talking to that @$&£€ I hate him I HATE HIM!!! And I HATE HER"

I went to my BBM contacts and deleted jasim from my list ..

I started tearing so much and placed both hands in my face and wiped my tears away I needed someone so bad..

I logged in twitter I sent a DM to a7mad he was the first person who went through my mind.

Manool222 :
"A7mad?"

PK7amood :
"Hala manal?"

Manool222 :
"I ... "

PK7amood :
"Entay?"

Manool222 :
"My heart hurts so bad a7mad gooly shasawy? Help me please please"

PK7amood :
"Sh9ar laish?"

Manool222 :
"I can't tell you right now I'll cry w ana eb bait 5alty.."

PK7amood :
"Okai mota trdeen elbait?"

Manool222 :
"10 pm"

PK7amood :
"Lama trdeen elbait Gooly ly kel shay okay? La t5aleen shay eb galbich"

Manool222 :
"Okai.. Thank u"

PK7amood :
"No need manool yala al7een 7awlay tensain w estansay ma3a 3ayltich okai?"

Manool222 :
"Enshallah"

A7mad gave me hope and I went in and started watching tv with my family to forget it worked for a while and when it was 9:30 we had to go home ...

Mom drove and took us home me 5alood and 7amood.

When I arrived home I changed my clothes to PJ's and cleaned and layed in bed..

The pain in my chest was still there I DM'ed a7mad.

Manool222 :
"Hey?"

PK7amood :
"Your home?"

Manool222 :
"Yea"

PK7amood :
"Good now tell me shno elly 9ar?"

Manool222 :
"Lets talk somewhere ales here add me on BBM"

I gave him my pin and he added me.

A7mad :"manal?"

Me :"yea?"

A7mad :"ee kalmay?"

Me :"I ... Ummm"

A7mad :"entay shnooo??"

I couldn't hold it I started crying..

I didn't replay him.

A7mad :"manoooooool wanich???"

I didn't replay I layed in my bed crying so haaaaaard Like a baby ash'hag.

A7mad :"manal tekfain reday Are u crying??? Okay give me ur number NOW!!!!"

I held my phone And saw what he sent I wanted to give him my number but I don't at the same time I wanted to stop crying It hurts me so much wallah so much I had no choice maybe if he called me he'd make things better cause he always does.

I sent him :"90******" my number.










I heard my phone ring...

I pressed the green button










A7mad :"Aloo!"

I was silent I was tearing alot..

A7mad :"manal?? La tabcheen .. Gooly ly sh9ar?"

I started crying loudly he could hear me.

A7mad :"manal tekfain 3ashany stop crying please manal"

Me :"Wallah mo beedy" while I was crying

A7mad :"okai haday shway shway??"

I took a deep breath

A7mad :"now goolay sh9ar"

Me :"he loves someone ales ... More than me he's back with his ex"

A7mad :"shnoo?!! Mnoo??"

Me :"jasim"

I cried while saying his name Its hurts so much my chest hurts my mind hurts everything and everyone hurts.

A7mad :"okay okay haday shway shway manool okay?"

Me :"okai"

A7mad :"tell me what do u like to eat for breakfast?"

Me :"shno?"

A7mad :"ee shno?"

Me :"what .. Haa ... I like aaa .. Eggs"

A7mad :"okai good.."

Me :"why laish sa2altny?"

A7mad :"u'll see ;)" he laughed.

Me :"okai"

A7mad :"manoolty?"

Me :"yea?"

A7mad :"smile?"

Me :"I can't smile you think its easy .. I've been hurt by someone I thought was my life ... You just have no idea how I feel"

A7mad :"ur right manal I don't ... And I'm sorry 3ala elly 9ar.. Bss from what I see ohwa ma yestahlich 3ala kel elly sawaiteeh etha hatha rada wallah ma yeswa 9adgeeny ma yeswa yhdich 3ashanha wallah maynoon mo bss maynoon ella ma 3inda 3agel wa7da methlich y5aleeha troo7 mn eda sorry bss ohwa 7mar"

I was silent.

A7mad :"ahh sem3ay manal If he truly loves you chan ma sawa chthy wala rad 7ag his ex ..."

He was right

Me :"yea" I teared.

Me :"a7mad galbi y3awrny shasawy?"

A7mad :"relax breath and go wash ur face"

Me :"okay"

I went to the bathroom washed my face and took a deep breath.

I came back and held the phone to my ears..

Me :"done"

A7mad :"good now u wanna play a game?"

Me :"I'm really not in the mood .. "

A7mad :"7ayati?"

Me :"haaa????" I was surprised

A7mad :"gelt 7alalich"

Me :"hmmmm ... Okai"

That was not expected..

A7mad :"bacher wain bitroo7een?"

Me :"ummm madri mally 5lg aroo7 mokan"

A7mad tried to talk to me to make me feel better and actually in the end he did but When he was gone when he closed the phone I felt lonely and the pain came back bigger in my chest at 12 I slept that day with a heavy heart so much pain I couldn't handle ...

I woke up the other day friday With a sad face expression I didn't feel good at all I felt like everything was wrong I stood up came closer to my window and opened it it was sooo HOT the weather wasn't good at all I went to the bathroom washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror and teared ..

I wore my blue training suit and calmed my hair and went downstairs to watch tv again..

I sat there I decided to login twitter I saw in my Timeline reem and jasim they were indirecting tweets to eachother.

Reem :
"He's the best thing I ever had I'm so glad I'm back and he's mine.."

JasimAH9 :
"I love her so much I've missed her more than anything"

I hated it ... I HATE THIS I HATE THEM
I hate him I hate him I hate him ... How could he laaaaaaaaaish.

I squeezed my phone so hard that my hand was so red I kept scrolling down.

Reem :
"#10ThingsILove Him<3"

JasimAH9 :
"#10ThingsILove her <3"

They were killing me I can't stand this I'm slowly dying inside.

I decided I can't stay any longer I wanna leave him .. For good ..

So I wrote a goodbye DM to jasim That I can't be his friend anymore.

I sent a DM to jasim.

"Hey jasim I just wanted to say that I wish u luck and happiness for u both .. But as for me I can't stay anymore I wanna go I can't be your friend anymore it hurts if you had noticed I was in so much pain that my whole chest felt like it was burning I love you .. I loved you and I only said I wanted a break for a while in 2 days you replaced me do you know how that feels being replaced by someone you love so much? Its not easy not at all I spent the whole night crying for you and To be honest jasim I wish nothing but the best for you ma3a kel elly 9ar and if she makes you so happy then you deserve her But I won't be here anymore you need someone who's willing to give their heart and soul to you and promise you forever ...and Thats something I can't do anymore I wish I could say to you I will always stay with you but thats not me .. I can say I'd be all you need but jasim thats a lie I know I'd only hurt you I know I'd only make you cry ...I don't really wanna go but deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do even though you hurt me I won't hurt you like that, You found her who is someone I could never be she may give you something better than The love you'll find with me I'm only doing this for u .. leaving someone when You love someone its the hardest thing to do when you love someone as much as I love you and I don't wanna leave you it tares me up inside I'm not the one you need I love you ...
Goodbye"

When I was done writing that I blocked jasim from twitter so he won't talk and I left I put my head in the pillow and cried so hard You can't imagine the pain I felt its like losing your heart its taring me apart inside so much ..

Gomt ash'hag while crying under the bed cover.

"please pain stop Please go away please go away ..." I said it while I was crying and my voice was almost gone.

I heard my phone vibrate.

I unlocked it it was a DM from reem.

Reem :
"Manal? Are you there? Shloon tsaween chthy 7ag jasim he's ur best friend shloon t'hdeena chthy w t76een lah block tadreen he's crying ga3d ygool ly its all his fault that u left and he wants you back.. don't you care about him if u did chan ma re7tay w hadaiteeh"


What?




She's kidding right!



I don't care about him?



She's has no idea I wish she would just shut up!!!


I replied to her DM.

Manool222 :
"Lol I don't care about him? I left for him even though I didn't want to it killed me to leave him I just wanted him to be happy I left for him so he'd be with you cause you make him happy ... Don't you tell me I don't care about him :) Everything I do is for him do u even know him ? Tell me whats his favorite color or what does he love to do the most ?? Haa?? Tell me"


Reem was silent for 7 minutes she didn't reply.

Then she wrote.

Reem :
"I know him :) okai and what u did was wrong just so u know just don't talk to him again:)"

She left and blocked me.







Wow! Really wow









I got so angry

"I HATE HER shtabi?? Mo kafy elly saweta feeny!!!!!"

I was so angry I screamed in my room and threw the pillow.

Someone BBM'ed me.

It was a7mad.

A7mad :"manal are you there"

I didn't answer him I was so angry and hurt..

suddenly I had flashbacks

3asyha :"hathy dala bent 5aly w hathy manal my best friend in the whole wide world"

jasim smiled and said :"tsharafna"




Jasim :"so manal 3arfeena 3ala nafsich"

Jasim :"mashallah ee wallah a7san mn banat al7een enshallah yakthroon amthalich"

I laughed shyly and said :"thank you"



jasim :"manal ... ana a7bich mn kel galby ... will you be my girlfriend?"

me :"yes yes yes <3"



We talked while on our way to el5airan I was sooo nervous that I'm going to see him.

Jasim :"close your eyes"

I laughed

jasim :"yala fet7ay 3yoonich now"

I slowly opened my eyes

me :"omg jasim mn 9ijik this is expensize why!!"

jasim :"el'3aly lel'3alyeen a7bich manal I dont care About the money low 3indy elfloos chan sharait lich the whole world ba3ad"


I looked at my bracelet the one he gave me and countiued rememrbring


Him :" i love u manoolty Forever"

Me :"w ana amoot feek jasoomy forever"


Jasim :"I love you Forever and always".

me :"forever and alway"

I started tearing ..

Jasim :"gomay .."

When I stood up he opened his arms and hugged me ..

I felt his warm chest and his touch I swear to god his touch has that magical thing that t5adrny and I feel so numb and wow ..

me :"wain benroo7?"

jasim :"ta3aly"

we went to a tree

he wrote J + M= Forever & Always

 I started crying ...

"I want him back he's mine I shouldn't let him go ..."

I held my phone and readded jasim ..

he accepted.

me :"jasim ?"

jasim :"manooooooooooooooooooooooooool .. laish troo7en chthy w sawaity block ma tadreen sh9ar feeny???"

me :"you have no idea what you did to me .. wallah :') I've never been hurt like that in my whole life ..."

jasim :"I'm so sorry I didn't mean to wallah u said 3adi w ga3da t'97keen with ur family and said friends I thought 3adi  3indich how am I supposed to know?"

me :"you should know that I freaking love you ma t7iss belly sawaita feeny????? wallah???? kel hatha ma 7asait I say I'm fine and left for u so you'd be happy why did you leave me for her while I didn't leave you for anyone ales.."

jasim :"what about a7mad haa?"

me :"I swear o8sim bellah I never did what you did I didn't tell him I love him or want to be with him w ma t3adait 7doodi  cause I love you I had you why would I want anyone ales bss lel2asaf you don't trust me w ana shasawit lik ? haa ma sawait lik ella kent m3ak w I listened to you and helped you  ... why jasim ? why ?"

jasim was silent..

me :"haa???:"

jasim :"I'm sorry manal ..."

me :"sorry? thats it ??"

jasim :"Idk what to say .."

me :"la tgool shay mabi ur sorry I wanted you ... you were mine not hers what cham 9ar lokom gabil?"

jasim :"4 months"

me :"you were with me 8 months thats double does she know you like I do? does she love you the way I love you? gooly bss 3awa'9tik b'3yaby ? are you happy with her "

jasim :"manal sem3ay .."

me :"just answer ?"

jasim :"no .. I'm not happy I hurt you and I hurt myself too how can I be happy when your gone .."

me :"3ayal laish hadaitny for her ????"

jasim :"you said we were friends ... and I knew it was cause of a7mad .."

me :"lol wallah ma tadri shay jasim you just have no freakin idea...  you don't"

jasim :"5ala9 manal I know you love me and I love you 5ala9 ahd'ha .."

me :"la2 don't ... stay with her ..
she deserves you more than I do ...


and I'm not a second choice to anyone


bye"


I cried my eyes off when I left and screamed.

"AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE MY LIFE !!!"

jasim sent alot of texts ..

jasim :"manal al7een bakalmha bahdha 5ala9 ... manal reday"

...

after 2 hours

he called me.

I had to pick up I was in a mess ..

me :"aloo" with a crying voice

jasim :"manal 7awalt akalmha w ahd'ha bss mo ra'9ya met3alga feeny ... gelt laha 5ala9 baroo7 ra7at elsa67 w galat wallah a8el nafsy mn foog etha hadaitny ... manal maynoona hathy sema3t 9oot elsa67 a5af tsaweeha .. w t6la3 elseba feeny manal ... I ... ma agdar ahdha I love you bss etha hadait'ha tnt7er tsaweeha ... w ahalha mo mtab3eenha oboha metwafy .. w messed up family.."

me :"jasim .. bss .. kafy I told u go ... I don't want you anymore la tkalmni wala tdiz ly ay shay 5ala9 its over ... for good I kept all my promises and I never broke one but you did and now I'm gonna break one promise .. another guy will have me .. someone who deserves me better than you ... bye"

I closed the phone and I cried again that was the worst day of my life

I heard my phone ring ..







it was a7mad ..