Me :"komary yebi my uniform bser3a"
Komary :"jain jain wait .."
I wore my school uniform and was ready my mom came in to tell me good morning ...
Mom :"manal?? shfee edich sh9ar?"
Me :"ee .. umm ams w ana al3ab ma3a 3awash 7sht 7adeeda 7aail kserat edi fa wadatny 3awash el6abeeb w lafha"
Mom :"w laish ma gelty ly??"
Me :"mom its nothing kafi ely feech you don't have to worry its fine"
Mom :"ana omich I worry about you all the time I love you manal mara thanya deery balich 3ala nafsich"
Me :"Enshallah yuma"
I took my bag and got in the car while I was omw to school I checked my phone No text from jasim.
Thats weird
Well I guess from how I acted last night why should he talk to me I wouldn't talk to me either ...
My face was filled with sadness and sorrow. My eyes were drowning with the unspoken words. My heart was heavy and so much wounded.
So many things left unsaid so many things happened all at once could I take this anymore remembering how he walked out that door ...
"Manal!! Manal'!!" I heard a voice near me.
It was komary.
Komary :"manal yala w9alna school"
I left the car and entered the school walking slow I didn't feel like going to school.
What am I supposed to do fake smiles? I don't want to ... I don't want to pretend That I'm okay when I'm not All the things happened to me and messing up with jasim I don't the strength to smile ..
I arrived to my class.
"I hope this day ends Fast cause I really don't feel like talking to anyone.." I was talking to myself.
When Suddenly 3aysha scared me from behind.
3aysha :"BOOO"
Me :"shfeech entay!!"
3aysha :"ooooh someone's in a bad mood this morning.."
Me :"I gotta go.."
3aysha :"manal wait .. Whats wrong?"
Me :"nothing.."
3aysha :"You think I'm stupid I know you, you should learn to lie better can't fool me"
Me :"what do u wanna know ? Everything in my life is perfect right now"
3aysha :"whats that supposed to mean?"
Me :"it means I don't need help or t3a6f mn ay sha59 I'm fine you don't have to say that u wanna know w a9lan ma farag etha gelt lich aw la"
3ashya was surprised about how I was acting.
3aysha :"wow .. I'm your best friend whats wrong with you ur not manal elly a3arefha what happened?"
Me :"nothing"
3aysha :"okay la tgooleen ly find another best friend tgoolen laha.."
And she left.
"Omg what did I just do why am I doing this ? Its not me first jasim and now 3aysha I'm pushing people away!!" I talked to myself.
Class started and 3aysha sat next to me but we didn't talk at all.
"Whats happening to me why am I acting like this I feel like I'm losing people . . ."
I looked at 3aysha I wanted to apologize so bad but I didn't I was silent all the time and she hasn't talked to me.
I went home I hated everything in my life the way I'm acting is effecting everyone I know I don't wanna lose the people who care the most about me.
I layed on my bed I needed someone so bad I want 3aysha and jasim.
I should apologize.
I dialed 3aysha's phone number.
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3aysha :"Aloo?"
Me :"hey.."
3aysha :"hala?"
Me :"I'm sorry for how I acted today I was a jerk but alot of things happened w I kept it in and .... yea tsam7eeny?"
3aysha :"ana mo m3a9ba mnich bel29el I can't even if I wanted to ur my best friend Manool I Love you"
I teared
Me :"I love you so much 3awash Ur the best friend in the whole wide world ma tadreen shkither a7bich w a3zich"
3aysha :"I do know manool and Its okay al7een bitgoolen ly elsalfa ?"
I told 3aysha everything...
3aysha :"Oh My Gosh!! .....
I just can't believe it... Ur dad? Ysawy chthy?? Ma twa8a3t'ha ..."
I teared..
3aysha :"manal?"
I started crying and was silent ma tkalamt.
3aysha :"ya 7aywana reday!! Dont you dare and cry !!"
Me :"shasawy 3awash"
3aysha :"its okay these thing happen in life ra7 tn9admain eb wayd nass bhaldenya some you knew ur whole life yet'3ayroon faj2a w some stab u in the back .. Thats life and people in it .."
She talked to me trying to make me feel better and I'm glad I didn't have to he alone I talked to her w 6ala3t kel shay I felt so much better.
Suddenly she brought up jasim.
3aysha :"jasim yadri..?"
Me :"umm yea"
3aysha :"how is he anyways"
Me :"ummm he's not talking to me .."
3aysha :"laish :/?"
And i explained what happened yesterday night and what I said to him.
3aysha :"wow ... You have to make it up to him!!"
Me :"shloon?"
3aysha :"5aroo7 AUM jam3ta w nfaj2a me and you"
Me :"la i don't think its a good idea"
3aysha :"yala 3ad ra7 yetfaja2 w yestanas 9adgeeny"
Me :"madri.."
3aysha :"embala tadreen you want to I know you do"
Me :"ummm oki 5ala9 deal bss mota?"
3aysha :"al7een its 3 he's probably still there so nroo7 now?"
Me :"now? hmmm ok bss wait for me albis"
3aysha :"bamorich ba3ad n9 sa3a lebsay bser3a"
Me :"okai okai bye"
3ayha :"bye"
And she closed the phone.
I went and opened my closet to find something beautiful to wear.
I wore similar to this outfit but it was taller and I made my hair wavy applied some soft make up and got ready.
I told my mom I'm going with 3aysha she said not to be late.
3aysha rang the door bell I went outside and I hugged her.
3aysha :"JAMEEEELA"
I blushed.
Me :"awwww thank you 7ayati enty ajmal"
3aysha :"chub u.u"
And we laughed.
I went in the car and the driver took us to AUM.
We finally Arrived it was far from where I lived.
I got out the car and 3aysha too.
Ma & 3aysha :"Wow!!"
The place was so cool we loved it.
3aysha :"Lets find him"
I followed 3aysha and we searched for jasim.
Me :"Excuse me do you know a Student named Jasim elflani?"
Stranger :"oh Yes He's over there in the that room"
Me :"oki thank you"
I told 3aysha the person told us he's at the that room and pointed.
We walked there and entred the room and there it was.....
I saw jasim holding a girls shoulder teaching her how to play a violin and smiling at her while she's looking at him and smiling ...
The moment I layed my eyes on her the anger and hatred towards that girl Was unbelievable I don't even know her who is she?
I looked at him with a Hurt and disappointed look and he saw me one glims.. Then he looked away he recognized me so He looked back again and saw the way I looked at him.
I turned around and left that room.
3aysha :"manal???"
I walked away My heart hurts so bad ...
I starting running.
Jasim got out that room.
Jasimd screamed :"MANAAL MANAL WAITTTT!!!"
3aysha :"3afya jasim its bad enough she's going through everything ... Ma twa8at'ha mnik ... Bye"
Jasim :"Waait its not what you both think!!"
3aysha :"Its exactly what we think el3yoon ma te5da3 chatheb 3ala nafsik cheater"
Jasim ran and left 3aysha to look for me.
Jasim :"MANAL MANAL WAIT TEKFAIN NE6RAY!!"
I ran and Cried.
"Why does this happen to me isn't there a trustworthy person out there!! Why dose everyone keep on hurting me.."
Jasim :"MANAL MANAL Ne6ray shway bss shway stop running"
I turned left the hallway and I stopped running and ensda7t bel6ofa mnazla rasy and crying..
I covered my face and cried . . . It broke my heart its like a Knife went through and outta my heart <\3
Jasim saw me and stopped running too and he cane closer ..
Jasim :"manal..? 7abeebti?"
Me :" la tgool ly 7abeebti.."
Jasim :"manal its not what you think .."
Me :"just leave me alone.."
Jasim :"manal sem3ay wallah ma 9ar shay Ana bss 3alamt'ha shloon ta3zif ma bainy w bainha shay why won't you believe me.."
Me :"I don't believe alot of things now! W ent tadri What I'm going through ma sa2alt 3ani elyoom kilsh do I even matter to you .."
I handed him a box.
Me :"hak.."
Me :"I wanted to give it to you to say I'm sorry for how i acted last night and I wanted to surprise you ..."
Jasim looked at the box and opened it it had a Prefum "Play" His favorite and mine That i love when he wears it.
I turned around and walked away.
Jasim :"manal .."
I turned to face him :"??"
Jasim :"Ana wallah asif w 8asaman bellah asef 9adgeeni ma kan neyeti mn elly shfteeh wallah a7bich t3arfeen shkither a7bich.."
Me :"if you do chan sa2alt 3ani elyoom"
Jasim :"enty maraity bwayd ashya2 w fakart a5leech terta7ain 3ala ra7tich bss wallah ma tadreen how bad I wanted to talk to you a7bich manal .."
I saw the honesty in his eyes and I knew he wasn't lying would a Guy lie to me like that while he's playing with other girls would he take so much time explaining what he did just to prove he's innocent at that Moment I knew He's telling the truth and I believed him.
Me :"... Ummm I believe you jasim .. But I'm sorry I need some time alone and space"
Jasim :" ..... Umm .... 5ala9 3ala ra7tich aham shay ra7tich But please don't be sad anymore I love you with all my heart Ur my wife remember ? 9adgeeni ra7 a5thich eb agrab wagt I promise you"
Me :"yea I love you too jasim so much it hurts ... I have to go now I'll see you soon.."
And i left I walked and saw 3aysha.
Me :"lets get out of here.."
I grabbed 3aysha and we went to the car and drove home.
I was silent the whole ride.
3aysha :" umm ... Manal?"
Me :"yea?"
3aysha :"Its okay ... Its okay"
And she hugged me and I cried on her chest while she's hugging me.
I slept on her chest till we arrived home cause it was far away.
She's the best friend ever I loved her so much she didn't leave me she was always by my side I'm so lucky to have her by my side.
"Manal 7abeebti manool goomy w9alna bait'kom" 3aysha woke me up.
Me :"oh .. okay" I hugged her again and thanked for helping me.
I went inside my house It was 5 pm I felt so dizzy My mood wasn't good at all I wasn't feeling good.
I didn't even eat lunch..
Mom :"manal radaitay?"
Me :"ee yuma.."
I felt so dizzy more than before.
Mom :" manal??"
"Hello? Hello! Can you hear me?" A saw a Stranger.
The imagine was all blurry .. I couldn't see him or anyone ..
"Manal? 7abeebti can you hear me?" i think thats my mom.
I opened my both eyes and saw myself in a hospital.
Me :"where am I?"
Mom :"enty belmostashfa 7abeebti 67ty '3ashyana belbait yoom kent akalmich ..w 3ala6ool wadaitich"
The doctor said ma kalaity shay w feech '9a'36 mortaf3 mo zain 7a6 lich drip.
Me :"oh ... My head hurts"
......... To be continued
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