A7mad :"manal!! Manal"
Me :"haa what?"
A7mad :"wain re7tay??"
Me :"I remembered something ... A7mad I have to go!"
A7mad :"wain? Wain?"
Me :"I have to go to 3aysha's and ask her something"
A7mad :"shno t'thakartay?"
Me :"something happened ams I wanna be sure was it true or not"
A7mad :"manal can't you go tomorrow
Me :"no its really important I have to know.."
A7mad held my hand while I was about to go.
A7mad :"manal ... Please stay 3ashany please u can ask her tomorrow"
Me :"but I wanna know"
A7mad looked at me with his big brown eyes begging me smiling his dimple smile holding my hand ... I felt so weak.
Me :"aaa ... Ummm"
A7mad :"ee stay?" He smiled half a smile.
Me :"okai fine I'll stay akalmha lama arid elbait"
A7mad :"7ayati wallah"
Me :"what -.-"
A7mad :"ummm Sorry bel'3ala6 xD" he laughed
I blushed
Me :"umm...."
A7mad :"you like it when I tell you 7ayati?" He smiled his dimple smile.
I blushed more
Me :"no chub"
a7mad laughed
a7mad :"manal?"
Me :"yea?"
a7mad :"how do you feel about me?"
I got nervous when he asked me that question
Me :"ummm .. I feel good?"
I sounded weird
a7mad :"no like how do u feel about me us our relationship"
Me :"oh ummm I love our relastionship I wouldn't change it for the world"
I sighed and looked at the sea he went closer
Me :"haaay wain raye7"
a7mad :"ta3ali"
Me :"wain elba7ar?" I laughed
a7mad :"ee"
Me :"mn 9ijik?"
a7mad :"ta3alai w bss"
I stood there looking at him he turned around and saw me standing he ran towards me grabbed my hand and pulled me.
Me :"haaaaaaaaaaaay wain wain"
he ran and I ran with him cause he was holding my hand.
Me :"a7maaaaaaaaaaaaad bendish elba7ar"
he was laughing and he stepped on the sea shore he put his feet in and grabbed me and I put my feet in the shore too It was sooooooooo cold.
a7mad :"aaaaaaaaaaaah don't you just love it"
Me :"Are you crazy its COOOLD"
he laughed
a7mad :"I know"
I closed my eyes inhaling the air while my feet in the water it was so beautiful...
a7mad looked at me smiling I opened my eyes then I looked at him I saw him smiling looking at me.
Me :"shnooo??"
he gave me his dimple smile.
a7mad :"I'm so lucky to have you by my side"
Me :"awwww I'm so lucky too without you Idk what will have happened to me"
while we were in the water just our feet I leaned over and hugged him he hugged me back he felt my heart beat It was beating fast he smiled.
a7mad :"I can hear ur heart beat"
Me:"really"
a7mad :"yea ... surprisngly I like it"
I laughed and back away.
he looked at me.
Me :"you're crazy"
a7mad :"I know" he laughed
after our talk and walk I liked him more and more I keep liking him more He's just incredible the closest to perfect.
I went home that day as soon as I arrived home I texted 3aysha.
Me :"3awaaaaaaaaaaaashh!!!"
3aysha :"hala shno?"
Me :"you lied to me"
3aysha :"what :\"
Me :"you didn't tell me the truth why?"
3aysha :"wait! about what?"
Me :"about jasim"
3aysha took 20 seconds to answer me back
3aysha :"what about jasim"
Me :"la tst3b6ain I remember the guy in the cap was jasim he was the one who beated up the guys and helped us"
3aysha :"umm"
Me :"why did you lie to me?"
3aysha :"I didn't lie"
Me :"right you were just hiding the truth? right? :)"
3aysha :"I had to .."
Me :"laish tdaf3een 3an ur cousin jasim :)"
3aysha :"Ouch! laish tkalmeeny chthy"
Me :"tell me why did you hide the truth goolay"
3aysha :"I can't"
Me :"why not?"
3aysha :"maybe you should ask jasim yourself he was the one who carried you he was the one who poured juice down your throat he was the one who saved you"
"but how did he follow me and why?"
Me :"why did he follow me?"
3aysha :"la ts2leeny I have no idea sh9ayer just talk to him not me .. and FYI (for ur information) you hurted me manool"
I realized I was hard on 3aysha I came too strong on her I didn't mean to I was just confused still I had no right to do that to her she deserves better.
Me :"oh gosh I'm so sorry 3aysha sam7eeny I was just confused and I didn't know the truth cause you hid it from me you never do that I'm sorry .."
3aysha :"its okay manool I know you didn't mean it .."
Me :"I love you I'm sorry again"
3aysha :"I love you too and its okai"
I had to talk to jasim in order to know the truth ..
I went in twitter and DM'ed him.
Manool222 :
"jasim?"
he didn't reply...
I waited for 3 hours then sent.
Manool222 :
"jasim answer me please"
he didn't reply that day I was wondering why didn't he reply? or was he avoiding me I think there's something happening that I don't know alot of people are hiding things from me.
Sunday morning I woke up wore my blue vest white top and black skinny jeans and black boots I was heading to college when I received a text from a7mad.
a7mad :"9abaaaaaa7 el5air my beautiful princess"
Me :"Awwww 9aba7 elnoor"
a7mad :"wanich?"
Me :"omw"
a7mad :"okai ;*"
when I arrived I walked through the halls thinking about friday night me and a7mad and I smiled remembering how we spent it.
in a distance I saw a7mad standing smiling that dimple smile that he always gives me to someone I came closer and saw nora.
"oh my gosh he's talking to her !! could it be he's telling her how he feels"
suddenly my eyes watered up I noticed the imagine infront of me was blurry.
"why am I tearing?"
I was wondring why did my eyes tear I didn't understand the reason all I felt was anger and hurt towards a7mad and nora I didn't want him talking to her I hated it.
"do I have strong feelings for a7mad, strong enough to be hating on my friend nora?"
I saw a7mad looking at me smiling half a smile I came closer to them and closer and closer then I saw a7mad giving her a peper.
"what did he give her?"
when class was over a7mad told me to wait I kept on walking.
a7mad :"manaaaaaal ne6ray"
I kept on walking I ignored him.
a7mad :"shfeech hold up wait"
he came closer and stood infront of me
I looked at him with an angry look then I smiled.
Me :"yup? whats up?"
a7mad :"shfeech akalmich ta7green"
Me :"oh sorry ma sema3tik" I faked a smile
a7mad :"ee mbayen .. enzain I gave nora a paper I wrote down my feelings on it now I just have to wait"
Me :"great" I went to the left and walked leaving a7mad standing a7mad came running ..
a7mad :"great thats it?"
Me :"ee bss shtabi ba3ad" I faked a smile.
a7mad :"shfeeeeeeeech?"
Me :"shfeeny ma feeny ella el3afya" I laughed sarcastically
a7mad :"la shfeech a7issich m3a9ba ana sawait shay?" he gave me his innocent look
Me :"la ma sawait shay"
I kept on walking he was follwoing me
a7mad :"wain bitroo7en?"
Me :"somewhere far away"
a7mad smiled
a7mad :"can I come?"
Me :"nope go spend time with 7abeebtik nora "
a7mad :"hahahaha manool chub"
I pushed him and walked.
a7mad :"wooooow madri entay t'3areen hal7ad"
Me :"ma a'3ar"
a7mad :"ee mbayen" he smiled his dimple smile"
Me :"shtabi al7een"
a7mad :"abi ag3ad ma3ach"
Me :"eg3ad ma3a nora"
he laughed
a7mad :"mabi abi ag3ad ma3ach"
Me :"ana mabi teg3ad ma3ai"
a7mad :"ana abi"
Me :"ana mabi yala roo7"
a7mad :"mabi"
Me :"ufff I hate you"
he smiled
a7mad :"I love you"
Me :"what?"
a7mad :"5oo ma yseer agool I love you to my best friend?"
Me :"kaifik yala baroo7"
a7mad :"mabi ge3day"
Me :"chub bye"
I left
I went to starbucks having me a hot chocolate sitting reading a book I turned to my left and saw nora.
"what is she doing here"
suddenly I saw a7mad coming towards her and sitting next to her..
he looked at me and smiled
"GOOSH I HATE THEM it hurts seeing them together and me alone"
I was so pissed and angry I stood up took my bag and cup and walked away
I put my headphones on and went to the back garden sitting alone I played Fix you by Cold Play.
Tears streaming down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
when I got to that part of the song I actually started tearing ... I placed my finger in my cheek I held the tears that was streaming down my face and looked at it.
"why am I jealous of nora? ... do I love him ... no I can't I do love him but I don't love him in that way do it?"
I was questing myself wondering weither I have feelings for a7mad feelings I never had only towards jasim
"am I actually in love with a7mad?"
I heared behind me
"e7mm"
I turned around and saw a7mad infront of me.
I wiped my tears.
a7mad came closer without saying any word he held my face with both of his hands and wiped my tears away staring at me.
Me :"ummm .. I'm fine"
a7mad :"why were you tearing?"
Me :"umm I don't know .."
a7mad smiled.
a7mad :"is it casue of nora?"
"what should I say? should I tell him yes?"
Me :"umm maybe"
a7mad smiled his dimple smile.
a7mad :"you love me?"
my heart started to beat fast and my palms got sweaty I felt nervous.
Me :"haa?"
a7mad :"do you love me?"
Me :"ofcourse ur my friend"
a7mad :"I meant love love"
Me :"oh ... no"
a7mad :"then why are you jealous of nora?"
Me :"I don't know I just am"
a7mad :"you're not (I just am) you have feeling towards me more than a friend isn't that right?"
Me :"I just don't wana lose you"
a7mad :"you won't manal I promise I promised you rememeber?"
I teared while looking at his eyes
"why am I tearing why do I feel so weird?"
a7mad :"manoolty don't cry .."
he wipped my tears
Me :"I'm not crying I'm just tearing" I smiled
a7mad came closer while his hand was on my cheek he rubbed my cheek sliding his hand through my hair my forehead and his forehead touched while us closing our eyes the feeling was powerful its like we didn't connect it was more than connection more than anything I was closing my eyes not thinking of anything and he did the same thing I lifted my hands up I held his face and he held mine he came closer and closer I wanted to back away but I couldn't I was weak ...
I felt his hot breath on my lips I was soo nervous suddenly my phone vibrated it was a call from 3aysha
suddenly we both backed away...
he looked at me and I looked at him surprisingly we connected like it was a deep connection how did that happen I have never experienced this in my life I backed away I held my phone and talked to 3aysha she said she invited me tomorrow for a gathering in her house I said I'll come.
a7mad looked at me and I looked at him ..
a7mad :"I should go ... "
Me :"to nora?"
a7mad :"yea .."
a7mad's side :
I want her to stop me I want her to realize she has feelings for me deep feelings she keeps denying it
Me :"yea"
manal :"okay"
I walked away
she didn't stop me I wanted her to stop me..
I kept on walking till I heard
Manal :"a7mad"
I turned around :"yea?"
manal :"stay with me? please"
I smiled and I went to sit with manal
"wallah a7bha bss abeha t3trf enha t7bni w tbadelny elsh3oor she keeps denying it I'll make her realize soon enough cause I don't want us to be friends its not right"
manal's side :
"I don't know what to think anymore do I love him or don't I? I'm just not sure about feelings anymore I don't know anything"
I talked to a7mad normaly after that then went home I changed my clothes I saw my self in the mirror I touched my cheeks imagining it was a7mad's hand then I touched my lips remembring his hot breath on them I closed my eyes remembering how our foreheads touched and how we connected in that way ..
I opened my eyes saw my self smiling like an idiot I was smiling and I looked down to my ohone I saw a notification it was a DM from jasim the smile was wiped from my face I was no longer smiling I held the phone shaking I was typing to him ..
JJx4 :
"hala?"
Manool222 :
"were you at marina 3 nights ago ??"
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To be continued ....
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