the doctor came..
doc :"how do u feel manal?"
Me :"my head hurts"
doctor :"may I" he placed his hands on my head
Me :"okai"
the doctor started pressing on parts of my head
doc :"does this hurt"
Me :"no"
doc pressed another part
doc :"how about this?"
Me :"not so much"
Doctor talked to my mom :"she'll be fine she just needs some rest she'll be out in a few"
I saw a7mad waking up and looking at the doc then at me he saw me awake and stood up the doctor left with mom outside a7mad came closer to me while I was in bed.
a7mad :"manal?"
Me :"yea?"
a7mad :"I'm sorry"
Me :"where's jasim?"
a7mad :"he left"
Me :"just like that?"
a7mad :"he told me to tell you something"
Me :"what?"
a7mad :"he told me he sent u a msg and u should check ur phone"
I check my msgs and saw this
{I'm sorry manal for everything I caused I broke alot of promises that I once promised you and I hurt you alot which is something you don't deserve you truly are a girl thats hard to find you're a good person inisde and out, you helped out alot of people you love kids and you feel happy when you make someone ales happy and that is truly 9efat ensana jameela 6ayba 7abooba w pure hearted girl I know now that leaving you to move on with ur life is the best choice for both of us cause you belong with someone better and I belong with someone ales too you see what I found out is that allah ma ketab lena ndoom when u wanted to go to AUM with me even tho u got like 90% and up thats impossible ma 8blooch bss 5eera le2na re7tay 6b and there you found a7mad you both truly belong together allah kateb lokom you meet thats why you both have a special thing me and you never had and thats why you keep meeting him 9edfa ... and I just wanna say I'm sorry for everything I caused and for every pain you felt I'm truly sorry when I saw you layin on the street '3ashyana my heart stopped cause I caused that I was the reason why you fell and got hurt and I'll regret it for the rest of my life I do love you thats why I'm gonna let you go and never talk to you again I'll let u live ur life without me in it its better for both of us I love you manal maybe we'll meet someday in the future goodbye yours truly - jasim}
I teared when I read his msg not cause it hurt me but what he said was right all of it I looked at a7mad he came closer wiping my tears away.
jasim was right allah ma ketab lena ndoom and maybe its time to actually move on ... with everything happened I'm greatful.
a7mad :"manal?"
Me :"yea?"
a7mad :"will you forgive me ? I know I acted like a jerk but I didn't mean to hurt you at all belbedaya jasim gal ly u wanna make her fall in love with u and I agreed cuz I liked u alot and I was selfish I just wanted to have you ... and that was wrong after a while I actually knew you more and more and I realized I don't care if you fall for me or not I just want you to be happy thats all my mistake was thinking for making u fall for me when all I ever want now is for u to be healthy and happy thats all I want seeing u like this in a hospital layin down cause of me is something I will never forgive myself for I don't care if u love me or not .. I'll be there for you I'll be ur best friend mother father sister brother whatever you want I'll be that for you no matter how many times u try to hurt me or push me away I will never leave you ever I know alot of people left in your life ur dad left and jasim but I promise you w allah shahid I will not leave you like they once did I will not walk away and if I did consider me as a dead man walking..."
I stared at his eyes and saw a how red and watery they become it was like he was almost about to tear.
Me :"I love you"
a7mad :"I love u too"
Me :"no ... I'm in love with you"
I could see the impact on him and the shockness in his eyes .. he couldn't believe what he just heard.
Me :"yes I am I'm deeply madly truly with no doubt in love with you"
for the first time I saw a7mad actually tear like it was a dream come true to him, he looked away smiling his dimple smile so I wont see him tearing I held his head and stared at his eyes.
Me :"its okai .. you don't have to hide ur tears" and I wiped them away with my thumb.
a7mad :"a7bich"
Me :"a7bik"
we heard the door open a7mad quickly stood up and mom came in.
mom :"haa a7mad gomt" she giggled
a7mad :"ee hala 5alty, el7madallah manal is okay"
mom :"ee el7mdallah eldoctor gal el7mdallah ma feeha shay"
they both smiled looking at me and I smiled looking at them I felt better than okai. for one moment everything can change hearts can heal love can be found pain can be gone and most of all friendship and family can come together again.
I wore my clothes and stood up a7mad said he had to go home and my mom thanked him for eveything.
when I got out of the hospital door my mom forget her bag she told me to wait I stood there waiting for mom when I spoted someone from a distance wearing a hoodie and a cap.
it was jasim
I looked at him and he looked at me.
I had flashbacks from our times together ..
3asyha :"hathy dala bent 5aly w hathy manal my best friend in the whole wide world"
jasim smiled and said :"tsharafna"
me :"hehe I'm tearing cause I'm happy"
jasim :"haha madam chthy ee 3adi ebchay elmohem mestansa" he was teasing me
Me :" Gosh Idk guys But I'm in love with him ... I keep falling for him more and more."
Him :"Manal ..... I love u with all my heart
Will you marry me?"
Jasim :"manoolty 7abeebti shfeech gooly shfeech please tell me wallah ga3d 3ala nar a7ateech!!!"
Me :" byet6algoon.." I said it with a crying voice.
jasim :"Good morning manoolty its ur big day first day of ur last second semester at school adri 6weel bss ee xD".
I replied :"eeeeee I'm so happy I'm glad this is my last year..."
I wore boxing gloves and started punching the bag.
each time I punch harder and scream, jasim was looking at me and so surprised he never seen me angry like that.
jasim :"manal ? shway shway 3ala nafsich"
me :"dont worry malik sh'3il"
Jasim :"a7bich manal elflani forever and always"
Me :"w ana a7bik jasim elflani infiniti"
I checked my phone jasim left me a Text.
Jasim :"MABROOOOOK elta5arj manoolty kbarat"
Me :"Eeeeee allah ybarik feek and excuse me -.- ana kbeera"
He laughed
we went to a tree
he wrote J + M= Forever & Always
jasim :"hows your first day .."
me :"it was aaaaaamaaaaaaaazing college is so much fun"
jasim :"my ex reem is back"
Reem :
"I'm reem jasim's ex
Jasim :"and We're kinda back together now.."
a7mad :"whats wrong?"
Me :"I left him forever ..."
{maybe we'll meet someday in the future goodbye yours truly - jasim}
I stared at him and he stared at me for the last time I smiled at jasim and he smiled at me I noded my head telling me "Thank you" from a distance.
he noded his head smiling looking at me for the last time and left walking away ...
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that day was a day I'll always remember I may have lost alot of things in life but the most important thing is learning from ur past mistakes and appricating them thats when the moments change you start to believe and have hope for a better tomorrow leaving behind all the sadness and sarrow, I thanked him because he taught me something a valubale lesson, jasim may have hurt me alot before I'm not mad anymore or 7a6a eb galbi shay cause I know allah kateb kel hatha y9eer It was lesson for me a lesson to be strong teaching me how to hold on and not give up and fight for what I believe in and what I want, for everything that happened between me and jasim I'm greatful for that, it taught me to be a strong person stronger than ever all the people who walked out of my life gave me a lesson to be learned and I learned from them, without that I wouldn't be the person I am today which is a strong girl who can face all her fears and dosen't easily fall apart I thank god for everything that happened I'm not angry anymore I'm not sad anymore that they left I'm greatful that they were once apart of my life teaching and making me strong so to all the people who left in ur life don't hate or get angry or get upset you actually get stronger so thank whoever left in ur life cause they taught a valubale lesson on how to be strong thats what life is all about learning not regretting.
Cuuuute , more posts pls ;'')
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