Someone Like You Chapter 40

After that day being in the hospital and seeing jasim for the last time something changed inside of me, The pain and anger I felt before simply disappeared I became almost a new person.

2 Days Later . . .

I woke up had to get ready for college I unlocked my phone and saw a text from a7mad.

a7mad :"Good morning my beautiful princess how are you feeling today"

Me :"morning sweetie yea I'm okai actually better .."

a7mad :"good cuz I have a surpirse for you"

Me :"oh shno elsurprise?"

a7mad :"mara7 agool shay till we finish miss sona's class"

Me :"pretty pleaaaase tell me?"

a7mad :"nope yala tzahbay"

Me :"fine"-.-"

I got ready wore my light pink baby traning suite and white shoes straightned my hair and applied some soft make up I put on some lip gloss and got ready before I got out of the house mom came to my room.

Mom :"9aba7 el5air manal"

Me :"9aba7 elnoor yuma.."

Mom :"gabil la troo7en abeech t9ar7eeni eb sha'3la"

Me :"shno ehya?"

Mom :"shno elly 9ar lama kentay eb starbucks? laish 6e7tay w 9ar feech kel hatha akeed 9ar shay?"

Me :"ummm"

Little voice in my head :
"If I tell mom the truth she'll be very disappointed on me and probably won't let me see a7mad again plus I can't lie to her"

I don't know what to say ..

Mom :"ee?"

Me :"umm well I was upset eb sha'3la 9arat with my friends w bnafs elwagt ma kalait shay thak elyoom kilsh"

Mom :"7abeebti u can always talk to me if u want with anything u know that right?"

Me :"yea I know"

Mom :"I trust you manal cuz ur old enough to make ur own decisions and you know right from wrong ..."

I was looking at my mom thinking

"she's making me feel bad now"

Me :"yea"

Mom :"I know that ur a good person w etha fee shay salfa about anything a guy? or something u can talk to me about it I promise you I'll listen"

"I wanna tell her everything but I can't"

Me :"yea I know u will mom"

Mom :"and I trust what you do is best for u and ur family"

"okai now I feel bad"

Me :"okai mom"

Mom :"yala 7abeebti take care"

I left I was on my way to college ..

"My mom was right but she makes me feel bad about what I do ... me and a7mad aren't offically a couple but I love him and he loves me she trusts me and I can't let her down I can't disappoint her by talking to a guy I know its wrong but I figrued it wouldn't matter to my mom or my family now that she said that and she trusts me I can't break that trust ... "

I felt bad about what my mom said cuz it was wrong at the same time I cannot not talk to him he's my best friend and more ..

I arrived and walked through the hallways I saw a7mad outside class miss sona waiting for me..

"Should I go and talk to him ? no no I can't I'm gonna tell him to not be a couple I'm gonna tell him we'll just stay friends college classmates nothing more"

Little voice in my head :
"But you just confessed ur love to eachother and once you love someone you can't just be friends"

other voice :
"I'd rather be his friend than nothing in his life"

"okai I'm gonna do it I'm gonna tell him"

I walked towards a7mad and I saw the look on his face he looked so happy happier than ever his smile ma faregat wayha I just couldn't tell him and take his happiness away I couldn't.

he saw me and he came running towards me.

a7mad :"9aba7 el5air manoolty I missed you"

Me :"ummm 9aba7 elnoor a7mad"

He smiled his dimple smile while I looked at him biting the inside of my cheeks I looked nervous.

a7mad :"so ... shfeech metwatra"

Me :"haa?"

a7mad :"hahaha ouff 7adich metwatra ... is it cause of me ;)" he laughed

Me :"ummmm..no"

I had to turn him down in some way make him not think we're a couple or we love eachother.

a7mad :"when we finish class I want you to come with me"

Me :"wain?"

a7mad :"you'll see"

Me :"oh about that I changed my mind I don't want the surprise"

a7mad :"laish?"

Me :"I have some stuff to do"

we looked at miss sona she interd the class I went in and a7mad was right behind me.

when class was over I got out hurring I didn't wanna catch up to a7mad.

a7mad :"hold up manool laish mesta3yela goolay ba3ad ur avoiding me nafs gabil"

Me :"umm la bss I remembed my mom needs me at home"

a7mad grabbed my hand

a7mad :"ta3ali"

he took me to the back garden outside.

a7mad came closer while holding my hand he placed his other hand on my hair touching it and smiling his dimple smile telling me :"manal I brought something the surprise"

Me :"ummmm ..."

he took something from his pocket and gave it to me







he was smiling looking at me I smiled back while hurting inside.

Me :"its for me?"

a7mad :"yea for my beautiful princess I know its not much but I have one excaty the same and you have one I want you to keep it safe with you so it reminds you of me and to know that I'll never leave you I'll always be with you manal ... a7bich"


It hurts to see him so happy and to say that to my face knowing I have to turn him down and I can't tell him I love him back.

Me :"thank u ummm a7mad .."

a7mad :"3yoon a7mad"

Me :"umm ... I have to go"

a7mad :"wait ur not going anywhere!"

Me :"yes I am"

a7mad :"no ur not"

Me :"embala I gotta go"

a7mad :"why?"

Me :"cuz I have to"

a7mad :"manal tell me? tell me why ur acting this way"

Me :"a7mad ... there's something I have to tell u I just couldn't tell u this morning"

a7mad :"shno?"

I took a deep breath.

Me :"I want us to be just friends"

a7mad changed his face expression he looked confused.

a7mad :"just friends?"

Me :"yea..."

a7mad :"why? U told me you loved me now u wanna be friends"

Me :"its cause of my mom ..."

a7mad :"what about ur mom?"

Me :"this morning she asked me why did I fell when I was at starbucks and what happened I told her I had issues with my freinds and she told me she trusts me with everything she trusts I'll make the right decision.."

a7mad :"and you think the right decision is being just friends"

Me :"yea ... I do love you but I can't let my mom down while she gave up everything for me ma ga9erat ma3ai she's everything to me ..."

a7mad :"I know .. but where does that leave me?"

Me :"u'll just be my friend like u always have been"

a7mad :"Just a friend??" I saw him squeez the palm of his hands

a7mad  :"what if I didn't wanna be just friends with you?"

Me :"if you love me you'll do this for me .."

a7mad :"al7een entay ma3a jasim 8 ashor w ma gelty lah chthy shma3ana ana???"

Me :"cause at that time things were different I didn't know that half the things I did with him was wrong and being with him was wrong too no body kinda told me and I lost that idea of it being wrong my mom now wa3atny and she told me that ..... I don't wanna be a bad person a7mad"

a7mad grabbed my face with his hands placing them on my cheeks.

a7mad :"Manal entay mota kentay a bad person? you never was a bad person wallah ma sheft feech ella el5air and you have a pure heart mo methel elbanat elly tshoofenhom nowadays y5arb6oon w yel3boon ur different thats why I fell for you thats why me and jasim fell for u you're different la tgooleen 3an nafsich a bad person cause ur not u never were"

I looked down on the ground I couldn't look into his eyes ..

Me :"yea ... I have to go"

a7mad :"please don't .."

Me :"I'm sorry .."

a7mad :"but I love you"

hearing him say that just stung me (bit me) it hurt me like hell cause we didn't even became a couple and now its like we're breaking up.

I looked at him while I was on the verge of crying.

Me :"I have to go"

a7mad grabbed my hand

a7mad :"don't go stay with me shwaya"

Me :"I can't .. we can't see eachother alot anymore if you truly love me you would do this for me"

I saw the look on a7mad's face it casued him more pain than it caused me he didn't wanna do that neither of us did but it was something I had to do and he did it for me.

a7mad :"okai ..."

he looked speechless he wasn't able to tell me anything but oki.

I left leaving him with a broken heart ...

"manal how could you do this? ..."

I was upset again actually more than upset I was hurt I never wanted to do this to him or to me but my mom was right having a relationship with a guy wrong even though he's my best friend no matter what I want he made it happen no matter what I say or try to push him away he was there for me I don't believe that our relationship is wrong but loving eachother so much could be a mistake look what happened between me and jasim .. was I ready to risk my relationship with a7mad was I ready for more probelms and another broken heart ... no I'd rather be friends with the person I love then risk getting both of us hurt including my mom if she knew.

nothing was more important than my relationship with a7mad I had to do this to save our relationship.

I went home I didn't feel good at all things were fine minute ago then suddenly it all went wrong..

I washed up took my clothes off and layed in bed I wasn't even hungry I didn't eat at all even breakfast I held the chain that a7mad gave me and I looked at it.


"I love you a7mad I just wish everyone would understand what our relationship is like and that we're not fooling around that we truly love eachother"

I stared at it tearing wishing things were simple wishing we could simply be together no strings attached no one could tell us what we're doing is wrong

a7mad's side :

I went home and I haven't ate lunch I wasn't even hungry while normaly I'm super hungry I layed in my bed holding the chain I gave to manal I looked at it tearing.

"7amood shfeek 9ayer wayd tdam3!! don't be weak"

little voice in my head :
"I can't... I love her she's my weakness shasawy!!"

I stared at the chain the one I gave manal to.

Manal side :

"I love him"

a7mad's side :

"I love her"

manal's side :

"I'm sorry .."

a7mad's side :

"I'll be fine .."

manal's side :

"I just want him to be happy"

a7mad's side :

"if this what makes her feel better and happy and not a bad person then I'll do it no matter what she asks for I'll do it"

manal's side :

I took a nap and woke up to my mom's voice.

Mom :"manal? 7abeebti gomay"

Me :"haa shno yuma?"

Mom :"7abeebti oboch dag yabi ykalmich"

ma estaw3abt shno galat

Me :"mno?"

Mom :"oboch!!"

I saw her holding the phone

I stood up and grabbed the phone from her.

Me :"aloo?"

Dad :"hala manal ... shloonich sha5barich"

I had a sleepy voice.

Me :"umm tamam u?"

Dad :"el7madallah ana tamam shitsaween shaklich nayma"

Me :"yea I was asleep"

Dad :"oh sorry gawamtich"

Me :"its fine.."

Dad :"7abeebti ana tawny rad elkuwait w 36litich garebat shrayich tyeen tbeeteen 3indy ana w morty bss laila wa7da ..."

Me :"shno ? ... la mashkoor mabi"

Dad :"5ala9 3ala ra7tich bss halweekend bamerich entay w e5wanich ne6la3"

Me :"yuba kilsh mo wagta"

Dad :"yala 3ad 9ar ly moda ma sheftich .."

Me :"with all due repect dad I wasn't the one who left for months and didn't call :)"

dad was silent then he said

Dad :"3ad shofay ana bamorich entay w o5wanich ra7 tyeen ma3ai wiether u like it or not"

he closed the phone

typical my dad is insain 3a9aby daraja oula .. I hate that about him.

 I stared at the chain I still had it in my hands while I was asleep I wasn't feeling good at all just when I thought everything was okai it turns out the excat opposite.